CantDecide... Posted September 20, 2005 Posted September 20, 2005 well 2 nite i had my closure. my ex and i talked after 3 weeks of not speaking, we saw eachother dunk at a party when we both hooked up with sumbody else in the others face(dont ask diferent story diferent thread) we spoke tonight and reconciled 3 weeks ago when she was pissed for me ignoring her. the past 3 weeks we handnt spoke. i had no idea if she missed me, or had 2cd thoughts, and figured id eventually talk to her and find out. she didnt have those feelings and i basically was expecting that. we were freiends all summer long, and i tired my hardest to get her back, but relized it wouldnt work. she told me shes moved on complelty and that she stopped being nastalgicabout us, and that after everything she cant evan try to regain the feeling for a relationship. and you know what im feeling ok. im not really upset, im not sad, im just blah. it feels somewhat good to know the war is over in my heart, and i can put this behind me. as much as i do want her back, i know now is not the time. we left are conversation not hating eachother as well. i told her if were at a party together i want to know i can say hello, and not have u walk away, and I also said when were at the same party, dont hook up with sumbody in public in my face, go to a private place, and ill show u some courtesy(if u want to know more read the thread in my threads titled "i dont think last night could have been worse") she said ok, and then we apoligized for doing that to eachother. and i said everynow and then i want to be able to IM u on AOL and say hey, chat for a little, cathch up, not everyday just here and there. and she said ok, but i dont want to be friend again, and i said well i already made that clear to u 3 weeks ago its not healthy, and im not about to start that again. so in genral i think im doing ok. i know in my head and my heart theres no more fight. she will always have a spot in my heart, and i will always be there if shes ever in trouble, nothing could ever chnage that. im just happy to know. and im really happy we left on a good note, no drama, no fighting, no nothing any comments or suggestions feel free to give em to me
Frog Posted September 20, 2005 Posted September 20, 2005 Sounds good! I feel exactly the same right now, months of hoping and wishing and reading signals into every damned thing she said: now it's over and no more pretending required. I told her I love her, and man did it feel good to be honest. She understood, she's completely understanding: but it's good to know that she thinks it'll never work again! And you know what: those four months of working on my self-esteem have worked wonders, because now I know that some damned lucky lady will get me as a husband one day, and I don't need to stress any more!
BklynGuy Posted September 23, 2005 Posted September 23, 2005 Sounds like you're both moving on and thats good. If youve made your peace, good for you....keep it moving. Live your life. Your feelings for her will fade and you'll be yourself again. I wish you the best of luck.
Author CantDecide... Posted September 26, 2005 Author Posted September 26, 2005 thanks for the comments but its not as easy as i thought....im having my good and bad days...sum days im great, other days im a little glum....i usually feel my most pain right as i wake up, but it begins to subside...im just trying to get on its really hard though...but at the sae time im just trying to meet new woman, go ona few dates here and there and spend a lot of time wit my friends...sumtimes i wantto call her but i know it wont matter, i knowi ts over, and all calling will do is set me back my week 2 day of NC...i know ill be ok....im figuring about 3 more weeks and ill porolby be 80% better as long as i dont run into her or hear from her ill be all set
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