meaghans1 Posted February 21, 2019 Posted February 21, 2019 Initially when I started no contact, it was motivated by wanting to get my ex back. Now, it's to get over him. I know, if he were to contact me, I'd never trust him again. I want to forgive him, so I can move on. Each time I try to, the next day I find myself trying to find a way to contact him. I think part of me is still holding onto a shred of hope. But, hope for what? For someone who walked out like I was nothing to care again? Or for someone who was either cheating or about to, to do it again? Before I met this person I was so confident, I practiced yoga every day and was writing and painting and doing all the things. He's in my dreams every night and in them I'm chasing him, and he's always finding an escape. Similar to the same dreams I had after a relationship I had about 5 years ago ( similar circumstances) except, my ex then was emotionally and physically abusive. But, an abrupt end, cheating, the whole 9. And left in utter confusion. I want to get through this, I don't want to cave. I dont' want to want him anymore. We didn't even date for that long, but it's dibilitating my life.
d0nnivain Posted February 21, 2019 Posted February 21, 2019 You need to change your self talk. Make a list of all the rotten things he did & all the reasons you are better off apart. Re-read the list periodically. Simultaneously remind yourself that you are a good person worthy of love & fidelity.
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