Lilo_8091 Posted January 10, 2019 Posted January 10, 2019 Hiya... First time posting.. Have been seeing someone for 4 years now.. In the beginning things were really awesome, laughter, happiness, so so much love... Where did the love go is what I ask myself lately We're both different people.....I've never been an extrovert, but everyone says I've neglected myself and become a recluse.. He on the other hand is obsessed with physical appearance, money and having tons of sex, cause sex is after all just fun.. The downward spiral continued when I innocently looked for some photos we had taken on a trip and saw responses to ads for casual hook ups which would be paid for by him... The hurt continued when people I knew forwarded me his pictured and profile plastered on dating sites... It turns out that he very confused about his sexual orientation... I was insulted on these sites too.. My pictures posted with captions save me from this land whale, bored to death with this.. I confronted him... Should have walked away.. Was blamed for breaking his trust and invading his privacy... This continued as he started texting an ex. Apparently I was just the rebound... He said he never really loved me.. That he only told me that keep here... I was basically just the housekeeper and nanny to his daughter.. While all of this was going on and I was trying to make sense of it all.. I joined the gym to try and get from a size 6 to a 4.. When we see family and friends, he puts up this front and is the nicest human being ever... I know I should have left a long time ago, some messed up part of me cares for this person and wanted to stay and fix what ever was hurting.. But in the process I've ended up breaking myself down in the process. I've told him that our time has come to and end.. He all he could muster up to say was that he stopped caring a long time ago, and that every one leaves but he does such a fantastic job they all end up happy after him.. This is a new year though. So here's me hoping I go through with this... As a friend says' you are no man's rehabilitation centre' x Lilo
GinON Posted January 12, 2019 Posted January 12, 2019 Ack! Walk out that door, never look back and start building your self respect. Go get some therapy if you can afford it. You are mistreating yourself by allowing this person to be near you. You are worthy of real love and affection, you just need to realize that no one but you can make you happy. Build yourself up, but you will understandably need some help getting there. The gym can help, a healthy body is awesome for your mind, but you also need a healthy mind!! You are probably suffering from depression and that is very hard to fix alone. Don’t be ashamed of it though, that’s like being ashamed of getting the flu. It’s not your fault but you have to take control and decide to get help. 1
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