Sadlygone Posted September 16, 2005 Posted September 16, 2005 Come on ladies, I still gotta be worried about you too. I try to stick my head in once in a while but I was hoping to get you two out of here for a few days. You have to promise me that your not here from friday night until sunday night. Your keeping your feelings too fluffy. You have to get it out of your head to keep from using heartbreak and happy and special when you apply your feelings to what you had with them....try something like this. Everytime I am taking a walk in the park by myself I am so heartbroken seeing all the couples together. I remember those beautiful days once when we too could go frolicking under the midnight moon. We cherished each other and spent the speciall moments in each others arms. New version here: I remember the days we walked in the park and when I think back. Its like I am just been completely stabbed in the back for his doing this to me. For bringing this gut wrenching feeling because he lied to me. He told me everything was great but I know he is a fool because my walks in the park are now filled with shattered dreams and broken promises. Its just putting a little reverse pyschology into your own head. You need to build up your resistance to him so in the future, so you dont play his fool. I have better respect than that. So when it is time to confront him, the real questions and resentment you have been holding will come out. By then, you will be able to put up a guard to all his charm and actually make him answer to you. You two better get strong soon because others will need your strength one day. I find my self getting more tired by the day. My powers are drifting. But I will press on with as much resolve as I can until your strength comes back. See the problem with me ladies, I didnt see the evil lurks within the forums. My guard was down and I only saw all the great support people were giving. However, the fool I was I came during the hours when your enemies come out. Yes ladies, you actually do have enemies. I came during a time when I didnt have much sleep. Searching for the answers. The problem is there are many posts here that folllow a similar script. What happened was I posted a few here and there. I was emotional broken and they went straight for the kill. They started mass posting, and many of the experiences that were being shown matched the personality of my ex or me. I start reading enough of them and your mind is clouded with fear, hope, desperation, and anxiety, you somehow are hypnotised by everything. Both of you should realized that I am a constant thinker. What happened was that everything became magnified in my head and every post around seemed to feel the same. A few days ago I almost came to the point where I lost, and I am talking clinically. I actually thought that I was the bad person because all they wanted was to be loved to and there were times where I know that I could have showed more emotion. But we happened was that I felt that I was the most insensitive person in the world. Then I read the posting that was so similar to the relationship I was in. The story was so true just a few details here and there. The lured me in and i thought this is my ex. I wrote it too. Thats when the hit me hard. I didnt know they were reading all my posts but they are only going at the people who are new. In one of the last lines that they were responding to that I wrote, they attacked me on some things that I said that I felt was a problem that messed up the relationship. So now I actually that it was my ex. How its so funny now though. Because soon after, I got things settled, I saw what was going on. So now I dont go lurking too much. Anyways, be careful what you write. It may be used against you to break you. You end right back in these forums. The key is to get out of here as quick as possible.
Sadlygone Posted September 16, 2005 Posted September 16, 2005 I am only sincere because for some odd reason or another, I see the raw and innocent pain you have and it breaks me to know this. I am holding my resolve so that I can get you two out of here. You gonna have to believe in yourself too though. Because you have to promise to never come here again. If there is anything you can do for me is to make that promise with me. After that you are on your own. To better and brighter prospects. It will be up to you to use that strength to better yourself. When you get out, I will let you in on a secret about me. I also do believe that this is a test for me and there is a purpose that has brought me here. But I remind you, I only have so much time so you will have to bring yourself together now and gather all the strength, will power, energy, and resolve to begin your fight and climb out of this whole. I am racing against the clock, so you have to be ready to start you ascend. Being in this place does you no absolutely nothing useful. Get out of here and make something of yourself. You still have time. Me, I've already lived a full 27 years. I have been searching all my life for this. But something has told me that I am needed here. If you believe in my just for a short while, then follow my path. My promise to you is that I wont lead you astray.
smile95 Posted September 17, 2005 Posted September 17, 2005 sadlygone.....I love LS. It helps me. It i my support system...I see you have like 4,000 new posts??? You may want to take it easy....why would you tell us to leave and then you posts like a million questions????
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