guest Posted September 10, 2005 Posted September 10, 2005 I love her with all my heart. I've never loved anyone this much. She loves me too, but I think she only loves part of me. The thing is, she will get upset with me for seemingly (to me and everyone else around) no reason at all, and say that she's hurt because I've been 'snapping at her all day'. But the thing is, I can't remember anything like that. I have no idea what she's talking about. It seems that certain things I say she takes as snapping at her, when I don't mean them offensively at all, and she says she tells me about them when they happen but I can't remember any of them by the time she gets mad. I think it might be that when I'm in a good mood I am overly sweet to her because I love her so much, but when I am doing something else or trying to think, I say things to her like I would say them to any other person on the planet and she sees another person in my words than the person she knows. It's like I'm two different people and I didn't even know it. Before you guys go all 'well shes a psycho bitch whos just trying to cause drama', just know that there is something in this about me that I just don't trust. I have constant memory loss about all kinds of events in my life to the point where I just remember the feelings I had at that time, and little things about what went on (enough to get me by normally) but I don't really remember the sequence of events that actually happened or what I said or did. I know I'm not schizophrenic, because I don't completely black out, but I'm starting to think this is really my fault. I think she is a little too sensitive sometimes, but maybe she's not. Maybe I'm just an a**h*** and I don't even know it. I don't want this post to be too long considering I'm not even registered on here and none of you know me, but I really need help with this. I don't want to lose her and I want to make sure she loves me and not just the me she sees when I'm with her. Please help me.
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