ICS Posted September 8, 2005 Posted September 8, 2005 A week ago my gf and I almost broke up but then made up and continued with things.. Until last night we havent been seeing each other for a while. It was also last night that she was completely psychotic. I understood that she wasn't having a good day, but i never knew that she would act and talked the way she did. She told me that she didn't really enjoy seeing me or even cared about seeing me lately. She also said that she has a better time with her friends than me because I am not fun. But it's exactly because of the way she was treating me that made me not fun, and all I wanted to do was talk to her to take a load off her mind. The night was horrible, and it ended with us parting without even saying goodbye. I told her I had to breakup with her because I was only trying to make her happy, without expecting anything from her but her appreciation. Another thing was how I've never been feeling happy lately because I only cared about doing things for her, but still she was pushing me away, she was totally insane with her emotions and I felt so sad that after 3 years of being with her this is how she turned out. My friends told me it wasn't my fault, but nevertheless I feel useless as a person. There's alot more to this than what I am writing about too, and I believe that she is still very much deeply depressed. She called me back this morning to tell me she wanted to be with me and will work towards that goal. I've not gotten sleep, skipped school, and I feel trapped. When I think about how out of control and awful, and self-centered she could be, it scares me, it scares me so much that I feel that I don't know her anymore. I am lost and confused and afraid.. and I only wanted to be happy with her... Sorry I've been so torn up inside that I can't even piece my thoughts together properly. Please someone help me
Merin Posted September 8, 2005 Posted September 8, 2005 Seems to me what you're afraid of is being hurt again, and who can blame you? Your GF said some pretty nasty things to you that obviously you didn't feel were warranted (and from what you've said, I don't think they were warranted either) Of course that would make you step back and wonder what in the hell is wrong with her... When you called her out so to speak in breaking up with her, she panicked which would lead me to believe she didn't really mean the nasty things she had said to you, but rather she used you for her whipping post (so to speak) when she was having a bad day/moment whatever and now is wanting to get you back into the relationship. My own BF is horrible like this... he can say the meanest things to me and be a complete a**h***... seems when he's called out on it is always when he steps back for a moment and then is sorry... I feel you on the confusion... the best advice I can give you is to think IF you're REALLY happy with her in your life or IF you would be happier letting it go. Hang in there
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