Infinite Posted September 7, 2005 Posted September 7, 2005 9 month relationship. 7 months was amazing. Me 23 her 22. Great girl. Loves to go out like I do, but likes to stay in sometimes as well. We got on pretty good. Our relationship was annoying to some as it was "perfect" or "what most look for". I gave her a promise ring @ 5 months which she adored and wore everywhere. We hung out almost everyday for anywhere between 2-8 hours depending if we were inside or out with friends. She was a flirt and was a bit overly friendly with other men. It didn't bother me much because it shouldn't have. However sometimes with a select few it did. One in particular. She met him at school. Knew him for about 3 weeks and was studying and what not with him. They flirted with each other but she denied that was the case. Told me she would never date someone like that because she had found the one she wanted. This got to the point where she was involved more so with this guy as she was too drunk to go home and slept over in another city with him in a motel cause he couldn't drive. Going away for days with him without mentioning it to me and so on. We met after that episode and talked for hours. She kinda backed me into a place where i felt there was no reason for us to continue. We ended it. She had nothing good to say and was "not sure what she wanted in any part of her life right now". I took that as she was interested in someone else and was thinking about persuing that if we stopped what we had. Ok so she of course started seeing this guy. Friends of hers tell me she had cheated on me which is apparently hearsay. Whatever I believe i don't care cause i have no proof. Someones lying but i'm not going to accuse anyone. After not talking for about a month and a half we start slowing talking to each other again. She tells me she has never cared about anyone like she did me. Her and this guy won't last. Her life is a wierd time at the moment. So she injected all these feelings that i had shelved over the away time into my veins. We started haning out more and more. Having good times. Hanging at her place and what not. Never any sex going on here btw. Recently I decided to tell her that I wanted her back and that i love her. She seemed excited. I wish i hadn't because she is taken but I did and I can't change that. I more recently told her that I hang around her with the intention of having her back and that if she doesn't want that then we shouldn't talk. So that's that. Keep in mind here that her boyfriend is hardly in this picture. She talks bad about him. They don't seem like they will last. They maybe see each other for sexual reason and part ways after a couple hours if they meet up for 1 or 2 days out of the week. She calls me all the time, we chit chat on her bed til early hours in the morning, etc. Not sure what this is. Assuming she is keeping me handy for after this relationship is over. Or she wants to be friends which is wierd, in which case I'm not wanting with her until i can deal with the fact that we will not ever be together. Will give more info if asked.
sanne Posted September 7, 2005 Posted September 7, 2005 you are her backup in case things go sour with her current bf. grow some balls, have some dignity, and walk away from this situation before it gets worse.
Author Infinite Posted September 7, 2005 Author Posted September 7, 2005 Also, we share a lot of the same friends. Unfortunately not being around her may mean erasing some out of my life as I would want to not hear about her or have big potential to be around her. That sucks to think about as some of these people are good friends but they are good friends with her as well and I can't just drop them. I do not however have a shortage of friends that do not like her, don't hang out with her or don't know her.
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