bad things

[hardendhart]

Well I don't know how to start, First my wife passed away in the year 2000 I have 4 children. I had a woman move into a house across the street with her two kids, we became friends and after about a year we had sex. she was in a long distance relashingship that I thought was over and thats why she moved down here. after a couple of months of really passionate sex she informed me that she had to go back up there for the weekend to break up in person and to have sex with him one last time, I was devastaded but didn't want to lose her so I allowed this to happen ( I should have kicked her to the curb lol) when she got back things didn't ever return to the way they were before, we did marry. I think that I was very vulnerable because of my wife dying and I know in the early days I would not have gave her the chance to come back to me. I do love her but she makes me go without sex for weeks and even months sometimes I am 45 and she is 35 I want sex and passion all the time she doesn't touch me hardly at all I did every thing for her the cooking, cleaning, laundry, ran all the erands I mean everything, (wimp huh) I screwd up bad by getting caught up in doing so much for everyone that I didn't go to work and she got very angry I told her to help out around the house but she would not do it. (I did have some income from my kids ssi) and I was trying to finish my degree, I only needed a few more semesters to graduate she wanted me to put it on the back burnner even though I was doing this before she came in. all the stress finally got me and I had two heartattacks in 2002. she rarely even came to see me in the hospital, b/c of her job (her excuse). 3 months after this she still wanted me to go back to work which I did (almost killed me very hard construction job). I went back to school and then along came hurricane Ivan and tore my house up bad. She had a very good job but quit so she could stay home and supervise me while I rebuilt it (almost finished) anyway there is a lot more that I can say I have let my kids get away with things that I shouldn't have but she is on their butts all the time, but will allow her 14 year old girls boyfriend live in the same house with her. I finally put my foot down after seeing them in the act of sex 3 different times. we are constantly fighting because she doesn't like the way that I disipline my kids (all are 13 and above) I tell her to raise her own and let me deal with mine but she can't stay out of it. I don't know how to deal with this.