To you get through your break up

[crazyguy123]

To whomever is reading this...

 

Last year, I met a woman who was 10 years older than I am with three kids. We met at work (*not really). Let me tell you, she initiated everything. Then, I began acting needy and ****. Texting, calling, and seeing her almost every day.

 

Then, **** hit the fan. She called it off saying "I need to work on myself"

 

I was devastated. I was hurt. This tore me to bits. Essentially, I just cut off contact and carried on with my life trying to show that I wasn't hurt. I truly was. She meant so much to me.

 

She was upset with my "no contact" decision as she wanted to be friends. She began flirting with a colleague of mine, whom I know attempted to go out with her. She played a lot of mind games. She was doing hot and cold behaviours with me. She attempted to make me jealous all the time. Until now, I know that she is still playing games. Her friends are constantly spying on me, till this day. A lot of my friends see the games she plays.

 

This break up put me through such a depression you wouldn't understand. I couldn't stop thinking about her on a daily basis. It took me approximately 5 months to block her on all social media.

 

After doing that, I could tell she was furious with me as I can see with the corner of my eye that she was upset.

 

Let me tell you, I wasn't perfect about how I had handled the break up. I should have completely minded my own business and continued on with life. But I did play games. What I did, was show that I had a substantial amount of friends with me. Those who love me and respect me. Which caused some drama between my ex and a female friend that I am very close friends with. That's about it. I should kept to myself.

 

To be honest right now, it still bothers me how people will go through the most trouble just to hurt you. Just make you feel like you're trash. But you aren't. You are not trash.

 

The best thing to do with your life at the moment is live it and enjoy the present. Try not to think about the past and not plan for the future. The most essential thing is to live in the present and enjoy what comes to you. Love and cherish the people who are there for you.

 

If they love you and care for you, they will be there for you. Supporting you through thick and thin. People who care about you will never leave you and always be there for you. That is family. If they don't want to be with you, then leave them. It's their loss. Because you can live alone and be happy.

 

Trust me. I may not be completely over the break up just yet. But I know that I will eventually one day, get back on my two feet and find somebody who will love me just as much as I loved them.

 

Take care of you. You are the #1 person for yourself. You are the person that you are going to spend with for the rest of your life.

[preraph]

It's funny how things can get so twisted with people. Part of that is simply knowing them long enough to see the whole person rather than the early days "best behavior" person. You always should know that the latter person is the real one and not the "perfect" one in the beginning.