confused45 Posted August 29, 2005 Posted August 29, 2005 Hi guys...I'm in a real bind here again! Well if you read my last posts. My girl broke up with me again with about a month ago. Saying she just didn't feel right about everything. She told me that she just wants to be single. And She said she has no plans to date anyone and she will even that if a guy asks her out she will not date them. She said basically she doesn't want to date anyone! So....she keeps telling me that she doesn't know what is going to happen in the future. And she said that she never said that she "didn't want me" . So...I have told her I respect her decison and I will be for her forever. I have told her I love her and miss her like crazy! MANY MANY MANY TIMES!!!! She absoluty knows how I feel for her. Its all just kind of confusing...she has even said that its confusing. We both told each other we don't want to see each other with another person and that it will really hurt us. Just saturday night she told me she loves me still and that she misses me. But it just doesn't make sense... She has told me that she doesnt' want me to be with anyone, and I have told her that I dont' want to be with anyone either. I just feel like we are on 1 BIG break! But we are actually broken up. I have told her to not call me or stuff like that because it hurts to much to talk to her. She said ok....but we both said that we dont' want each other out of our lives. So about 1.5 days go by with out no contact. Untill 2 weeks ago last friday she texts me saying she wants to call me. I was like ...wtf. I told you not to call. ughhh!!! Any way, during the school week (I'm in college) She would text me "what are you doing?" stuff like that, really odd. She would call me to say hi...even though I told her not to, but I still talked to her. But I know somthing is there. She even tells me that she still has feelings for me! but of course Not as strong has I have for her. But see her is the thing, I'm in college and she is not. She is working full time up in chicago... So this last thrusday, I went to a house party with my friends. She always asks me what I am doing so I tell her. I am not a snob! anyway she calls me 4 times. I didn't hear my phone ring. So she gets up set and thinks I am having a too good of a time to talk to her. And she thinks I am too busy to talk to her and that I am talking to other girls..which i'm not. So On friday she calls me alot to say hi. And such asks If I am going out again...I say yes. She then calls me again like 30 mins later to just talk...and asks me what I am wearing, and see If I am going to wear a tight shirt that will show my body off and all. And she starts to say that I want attention. I told her it was rude of her to say that about me. She aplogizes and told me to have fun. Later that night she says that she wishes she had somone to cuddle with and she kept telling me that she was climbing into bed. ugh..... So this past saturday...I go home to go to the lake to go with my family rafting. She keeps calling me through out the day to say hi...such and such...and says that I should call her and stuff! She even left a voice mail saying ...HI HONEY! wtf!!!!!!!! She texts me later that night saying she misses me..i text back saying I miss her too. She then calls again like an hour later to say hi and talk. We talked for a little bit and she asks me what I am going to do that night. I tell her, and she asks me if one of my best friends girlfriend is pretty. I said yes.....I think she is. And my ex knows that I think she is the most beautiful woman in the world in my eyes. She got real quite and I told her i had to go. I later texted her to tell me what Is wrong and that she could tell me anything. She said that she didn't want me to think that she was pretty! oMG that girl is one of her best friends too!!!!!! Then I asked Y. She then said " I dont' know. I"m dumb. I know she is pretty. I just want your eyes on me." And she texted me again and said that she just wanted my eyes on her and didn't want me to think that she is pretty. So later that night, she keeps calling me. and we talk online and she says that she loves me still. Then out of the blue she goes "I"m horney right now, I wish you were here!" This is all killing me! I love her so much! She knows this. BUt she keeps asking me if I check out girls and such, I say no..and she is like..not even a little..I said nope! She says its MEANS SO MUCH TO HER HOW I TALK TO HER STILL AND TELL HER I LOVE HER. AND THAT SHE WANTS TO HERE IT STILL. But I told her I feel like I am beating a dead hoarse...but she says it means more that I think..... I never start contact on her..she always calls me or texts me...I am just confused...she said she even thinks all of this is confusing as well. This comming weekend I am going up there to visit her with a friend of mine and his girlfriend. All 4 of us are going to hang out. I told her am I going to spend the night with her. She wouldn't mind if I did. She wants me to cuddle with her and play with her hair. And trust me ..she doesn't let just ANYBODY play with her hair. I told her I wouldn't mind if we kissed a little bit. She just said she doesnt' want to lead me on or make it hard for me... And if we ever get back togethere again, she said she wants to take it suuuuuuuuuuper slow... What kind of pickle am I in people! PLEASE HELP ME...IT FEELS LIKE SHE DOESN'T WANT TO LET GO YET...Exspecially when she says she just wants my eyes on her....I am totaly fine with her decisions...as long as she STAYS single and doesn't date ANYONE. The minute she does...and its not me, I AM GOING TO DO NC 4 A REALL LONG TIME!!!
Rocko Posted August 29, 2005 Posted August 29, 2005 Don't let her have the physical aspects of your relationship. Sounds hard, but you need to draw a clear cut line between what you had and what you have. Pull away a bit as well, she needs to realize for herself that she misses you. Don't answer all calls, etc. Otherwise I'd say your decisions are pretty on-par. Good luck!
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