heartnsoul Posted August 28, 2005 Posted August 28, 2005 I just really need to vent right now. For anybody that makes it thru this thread, I thank you in advance lol I'm seriously trying to move forward regarding the ex but feel as though I'm stuck in a serious rut. I recently took a trip out west to visit family in hopes of diverting some of these sad feelings but my heart has an agenda of it's own. He officially asked for a break in mid July and I spoke with him last at the end of July. In a nut shell, he never mustered up the courage to end it with me. Some will say that taking a break is the same but in my mind, it isn't. I understood that he had his problems to deal with and when he called me to ask for this break he was literally in tears so, I thought OK, he's having a hard time with life. I didn't beg, I simply listened but felt my heart in the pit of my stomach the whole time. I knew of his past relationship and that she basically ripped his heart out with lies and cheating but they produced a daughter together and I don't think that he ever moved past the pain the ex caused. Consequently, he was very insecure with me....always expressing his fear of me leaving/hurting him. I didn't really know how to treat the situation because I've never dated anybody with his background (LTR w/ Daughter) but I knew that we had long term potential and tried to comfort him as much as I could. We exchanged "I Love You's" rather quickly and he even brought up us moving in together. However, I asked that we spend more time together before making that kind of move. In hind sight, I guess I made the right decision. I'd like to think that he just freaked out and that he'll come to his senses but I realize that's not healthy for me. I understand that any closure at this point is gonna have to come from w/in but it's so damn hard.
upsetnhurt Posted August 28, 2005 Posted August 28, 2005 He may come back and he may not and with that you need to just move forward with the latter thought. Take this time to re-invent yourself and stand on your own two feet.
Author heartnsoul Posted August 30, 2005 Author Posted August 30, 2005 Thank you upsetnhurt. I know I'll eventually move on and have taken steps in doing so. I just feel this huge 'wall' from the hurt this whole sitation has caused and I know in order to have a successful relationship in the future, it's gonna have to go. For now, it's one day at a time.
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