CrazyKatLady Posted February 4, 2018 Posted February 4, 2018 So, I know I said farewell earlier today, I was feeling stronger and ready to get my life back on track...well, this evening I was looking through more online dating advice, etc., and went and made a profile on an internet dating site for the first time. I could not believe how much fun it was and it took my mind off of my ex for the first time in almost 2 months since he NC me. I didn't even know what NC was or that he was doing that to me! I'm a nerd! But tonight, for the past hour, I have been emailing someone in the same town I am in and he was really kind and patient with my excitement over my first internet dating chat. I feel really happy and positive. I never would have initially tried to move on in this manner, I was apprehensive to use the internet as a place where I could meet men and potentially date them, but after getting multiple emails, it made me feel like I could maybe find someone who thinks I am good to talk to and be around. It was so refreshing to see all those smiling faces. I miss someone smiling at me because they are happy to see me and because I make them happy. It feels so good just to see a friendly smile and to smile back. I am excited to quit feeling like crap, laying around depressed in my dirty home. Tomorrow, I am cleaning it all, preparing to go back to my classes, and focus on my sweet baby boy again. I just know I will meet some new friends soon and I can't wait to put my ex behind me like he did to me--and just simply walk away with no explanation or contact, throwing our love out the back door and breathing in the fresh air of new and happier beginnings! Maybe this next time, I won't get stood up on the first few get togethers and will be treated like a lady. This is going to be so much fun! I really want to make new friends most of all. Still not totally ready to date. My heart still aches a bit for my ex, but that's what happens when someone rips out a piece of it and never returns to you...I see a lot of potential to share happiness with someone else in the future, though. God is Good. I thought I may not ever smile again, or stop the tears from falling but tomorrow is a new day...and it just got a little brighter! 2
Iseult Posted February 4, 2018 Posted February 4, 2018 This is going to be so much fun! I really want to make new friends most of all. Still not totally ready to date. I'm so happy for you that OLD is lifting your spirits! Remember, whenever you're feeling down or ugly or lonely, there will always be this unlimited source of validation waiting for you. Don't worry about being ready to date or not. That's not what OLD's for anyways. Just sit back and soak up the feels!
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