*sigh* where to begin

[Theredisout2]

I've been with my bf for 2 years now, And I hope I didn't screw our relationship up Last night I had a pretty bad argument with my bf, I was very drunk, but I have no clue what the argument was about or how it spiraled out of control so quickly. I just remember telling him that I was done, {As in living with his parents and just everything} My mom told me that I told him never to speak to me again, and lose my number etc... I've been stressed out at work, and we've both been stressed when it comes down to life in general. Our car recently broke down, and we both don't make a lot of money to fix it. So I think last night I just had to let it out. I have done this before, but we've been able to pick up the pieces after. Last night, I think I went too far with what I said, but again, I don't have any clue what was said. I packed up a lot of my stuff and left. I texted him last night saying that I was sorry and I didn't mean anything that I said because I didn't. He texted me that he didn't want to say anything, because he's not ok, and he needs a day or two. This morning I texted him again just saying that I was sorry and that I couldn't help but text him, because I'm not done with me and him. He hasn't texted or called me all day, so I've respected him and haven't said anything to him since the messages I sent him at 10 in the morning. I've been an emotional wreck all day crying on and off. I REALLY hope I didn't screw the best thing I've ever had and the best relationship that I've ever been in.

[springy]

Give him the space he asked for. He will reach out when he’s ready. Stop drinking and get help if this is a problem for you.

[Theredisout2]

Thank you for commenting. This has only happened twice this being the second time. I've been warned not to go crazy with the alcohol, because I have Native American blood and it affects me a different way same with my brother. Lately I've been blacking out when drinking which is scary because I never used to do this. I blacked out last night. Don't really remember why it spiraled out of control so quick and why we were arguing in the first place. we've both been very stressed lately, and maybe we both started in on each other I don't know. I'm just hoping everything works out

[CautiouslyOptimistic]

You can't blame ethnicity on drinking too much. Just stop getting drunk and this stuff won't happen.

 

I agree, give him time and space. Hope it all works out for you and you stop drinking to excess.

[1fish2fish]

This has only happened twice this being the second time. I've been warned not to go crazy with the alcohol, because I have Native American blood and it affects me a different way same with my brother. Lately I've been blacking out when drinking which is scary because I never used to do this. I blacked out last night. (

 

This is a total cop out. You know you don't have the tolerance for alcohol that perhaps other ethnicities have and yet you choose to indulge in excessive drinking.

 

Please look into AA and getting sober.

[Nadine123]

Get the help you need, that should be a priority.

 

Once you're kind to yourself, you'll be able to do that to others as well. I used to drink alot and I made some of the stupidest mistakes because of that, so I understand.

 

Your bf might want to reconcile once he sees the changes you're trying to make.

[kgcolonel]

In your next communication tell him that you're through with alcohol and that you're attending AA. Start attending AA and you'll understand better the patterns that alcohol abuse destroys lives.