I keep going back and forth on casual/hookup sex, I've only been broken up from my.e

[Olivia D]

I meant to say "I keep going back and forth on casual/hookup sex, I've only been broken up from my ex for 3 months." So, I broke up with my ex 3 months ago. My goal was to remain celibate until I find the right one. I feel like I'm all over the place though. I am in a severe depression. I kinda want to hook up and have casual sex with guys, but in the same breath I would feel very unsatisfied afterwards. I know I probably would feel that way.

 

I am a relationship type of a girl. I'm not a hook up girl. This was my first bf that I gave my virginity to, that I broke up with. My heart is broken, but I don't know if I should hook up with guys? Because let's be honest I'm horny haha. I want sex, but I have such strong morals and loyalty, that I feel if I am having sex with someone then there needs to be something meaningful out of it. A relationship. I'm a very good girl, and so I don't know if I'll feel worse if I just hook with a guy? Or if I should wait? What should I do? Because I'm all over the place, wanting sex, but then I don't because I want a relationship, and I know I'll feel disappointed, dirty, and unfulfilled in the end, but then I might not? I just don't know what to do or what I truly feel about casual sex. What do you think I should do? Thank you. (Sorry about the title. I meant to say "I keep going back and forth on casual/hookup sex, I've only been broken up from my ex for 3 months."

Edited November 9, 2017 by Olivia D

[Buriall]

So you broke up with your bf just to have casual sex with others?

[HumanMachine]

Does this have anything to do with the break up or is it just you seeking validation to have casual sex?

[chicagogem]

Based on how you said you would feel if you did hook up, I would say that you probably already know what you think you should do. You value yourself and want to give yourself away in that form in the context of a significant and meaningful relationship and I think that’s very honorable. When we’re hurt, it’s tempting to devalue ourselves because we sometimes lose sight of our own value. But I assure you, your value has not been diminished, so don’t let your pain take that from you. Is there anyone else close to you that might be able to listen and support you?