Author heartoutside Posted December 11, 2017 Author Posted December 11, 2017 So it's been a rough couple of weeks. I've been having these serious bouts of depression, more or less. Just sad and blue. Some days are better than others. But lately I've just been really missing my ex. I've seem to have forgotten about the bad times and can only seem to focus on the good times. It doesn't help that I've been living with my brother and sister inlaw and their kids while I try buying a place. I had an offer on one but it fell through because the seller wouldn't come down on the over valued price. The crappy part is I would have probably been ok with meeting the seller half way on the price, but my brother and sister in-law both said, no don't do it, you have time on your side, you can stay here as long as you want. Well on friday, my brother basically said that I should probably try moving out as soon as possible. That's a whole other story, but crappy none the less. I know for a fact that the only reason he's asking me to move out is because he has no patience or understanding and rather than being a man and talking to me about what is bugging him about my staying with them and how we can address it, he's asking me to leave. It's probably for the best, I need my own space mentally and physically. But it sucks because I would probably have closed on that house had he not told me to do it. So now I'm moving into a 3 month sublet. Hopefully I can find a place to buy by then. Regardless, these past 2 or 3 weeks, I just find my self constantly near tears and sad. While the first 4 weeks, I was strong and excited about the idea of starting a new future. Maybe things have worn off and reality has set in, like I'm sure it happens with our exs. Either way, I'm not sure how to shake this cloud of sadness? It doesn't help that its winter and alway gray and cold around here.
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