quinn83 Posted August 17, 2005 Posted August 17, 2005 Hey Everyone, So my SO just broke up with me 6 weeks ago. Read my post "How to Let Go??? Help!" for full details. Anyway from what everyone tells me it was her fault and she has mental problems and too many insecurities. To say the least she was abusive both emotionally and physically once. She was immature. She was so insecure. She broke up with me countless time over literally nothing that a normal person would act more rationally. Anyway if you wanna here the full story its in my first post. Anyway somedays I am good and very secure and confident that I am doing the right thing and that I was not at fault. And I should just move on and move on to better people that deserve me. And then some days when I see her, all those feelings flood back again at an instant and I start second guessing myself, looking back in the past looking at the simplest thing and wondering if I did something wrong, even though I didn't. And I have to remind myself again and again of all the bad hurtful, pain she inflicted on me. And then after a while I start regaining my confidence again. Why is this???? Why does this happen? Somedays I feel so good about whats happening and then other days I hit rock bottom in a matter of seconds and almost start breaking down like I was shot in the chest...It's almost paralyzing when it happens. I keep asking her to leave my stuff at my building, I've told her many times and she says okay to it.. and then never does it! Is she just screwing with my head or is she trying to hold on to me and hope that I will come back... Everytime I see her she always says hi and there's no negative feelings come from her. What should I do there? It's stuff I want back too, not something I'm willing to give up and I don't wanna do the ask the friend to pick it up either.. because we have mutual friends its awkward for them. I'm thinking I will call her and say after shes done work I will go over to her place and grab my stuff and then take off. I can keep pondering these head games anymore. What do you guys think?
Markyboy Posted August 17, 2005 Posted August 17, 2005 hi there, dont contact.......i kept it up for months, then after a time (3-4 months)......she started to text me wondering what i was up to, how are you etc.......the curiosity kicked in, because i didnt contact her.......it gets to them history......i was with her 3years, then new years eve 31/12/2003........she told me she wanted the dreaded break........i was cut up so bad.........after a couple weeks of contacting her, wanting to know why etc.......i realised this would make her worse so i stopped........it hurt........but then after a few months she started to text me once a week.....and i didnt reply for 7 weeks it took me 6 months to get over the hurt..........even though a part of me still miss her today
Author quinn83 Posted August 18, 2005 Author Posted August 18, 2005 Okay I don't think im going too anymore... I just kinda need closure... You see we were talking as friends for a while after the break.. I called her one friday night after a movie just to talk for a bit. She was having an old guy friend up for the weekend, She says hes an old friend which is he and it was nothing more than that. I'm not sure where he stayed overnight , hotel or her couch... Anyway I called her friday night like I said we talked about the movie everything seemed fine as fine as things could be we were friendly and I said goodnight and her guyfriend would be coming up the next day, and well I knew she wouldnt call me while he was up, and well after the weekend ended and he left she never called me again... And when I saw her at work on monday she barely looked at me. So on tuesday a day after the NC began, I saw her at work again and again she gave me this half smile and wave like she was trying to not see me. Then the next day I saw her again at work (our workplaces are very close buy) I waved to all the other employees and I noticed she was purposely not looking at me then as I was leaving I caught her looking at me so I came back and waved at her like purposely "saying hello" trying to get her attention. She gave me a wave and this fake smile again like she was embarrased or ashamed to look at me. This guy in the past has hit on her alot and did like her he even kissed her and tried to make out with her while me and her were just seeing each other. She isnt like that so I don't think anything happened. What do you guys think? Why all the sudden NC on her part after the weekend? Could I be wrong?
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