dgiirl Posted August 14, 2005 Posted August 14, 2005 For those who dont know my story, i'm facing a divorce. We've been seperated for 6 months now, as of today. A few days ago we met in person to discuss the legalities, and things didnt go well. Since I had already broken NC, and I noticed he was still hurt about a lot of things, I took it upon myself to email him a long letter about my own experiences and where I thought things went wrong. I appologized for the things I did and the way I made him feel. He replied acknowledging the same things, and also appologized for the way he left. He was very cruel and broke my heart. The following day he called me on the phone for something stupid, and then that night he emailed me about the legalities. And then today, he emailed me with an obscure subject so when I read the email it simply said happy birthday. I'm in tears. I'm lonely. All my family/friends live out of the city so this is my first time ever alone on my birthday. I love him, i'm so confused.
lindya Posted August 14, 2005 Posted August 14, 2005 Oh dgiirl. Sending that email you and reading his response is bound to have left you feeling a little emotionally drained and vulnerable. Add to that the fact that it's your birthday, and it's understandable that you're a bit wobbly just now. Get yourself a pen and paper and devise a really special belated birthday treat to yourself. In fact, why not decide that you're going to have your birthday next week and plan for it in advance. A couple of really pampering beauty treatments, and perhaps a trip out of town to visit friends and family? You can then organise a bit of a birthday bash with them. Some years, birthdays are just things to be got through - and it sounds as if this is one of yours. Nonetheless, hugs and happy as possible birthday today...and have a fabulous time NEXT week when you feel ready to celebrate it properly
Author dgiirl Posted August 14, 2005 Author Posted August 14, 2005 Thanks lindya I actually bought myself a mccain cake and mugs root beer for myself to eat all day. Not as elaborate as my stbxh would have planned for me, but hey that's me. I'm planning on sitting in the tub and relax all day. In a weird sick twisted way, I want to spend the day by myself, feeling sorry for myself, so I can appreciate my birthdays in the future.
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