Micheley07 Posted August 10, 2017 Posted August 10, 2017 Two months ago I moved out of the house I shared with my now ex boyfriend. We are both 40 years old and both have been divorced. He is an alcoholic. We were together for four years. I tried to break up before but always took him back. The problem is that he was the nicest guy ever. Never raised his voice, never argued or fought. He is a sleepy drunk who I believe suffers from major depression. We were best friends. He was really good to my kids when he wasn't laying in bed almost always when he wasn't at work. A year ago I decided I was done, saved money, waited for the lease to end, to moved out. The problem is I really miss him and I don't know why. I was so tired of everything. I went no contact a month ago but he has managed to get two texts through to me. The last text he sent before I told him to stop texting me broke my heart even more. He said he would love me forever and that he hopes to see me some day. I cried myself to sleep three nights straight after reading that text that I did not respond too. I wonder sometimes if I miss him or that I am more sad over being single. I believe that I have a codependent personality or I would not have been in a relationship with him for so long. I just want to feel like my old self again and I feel like I am fighting the time it takes to heal. I know I will heal because I did after my divorce. Any words of advice? I can get free counseling through my employee assistance program at work and I am thinking that maybe I should see a counselor again. Seeing a counselor really helped me in the past when I was trying to separate myself from him. How do you ease the pain of living alone with your kids again. I am a relationship person so it's hard.
ZayKayWill Posted August 10, 2017 Posted August 10, 2017 (edited) It sounds to me like you truly care about this guy, but the alcoholism drew the line for you and eventually you have just had enough? In all honesty I can understand why you wouldn't wanna put up with that, but it sounds to me like you still care about him and if given he didn't have the problems he does now, you wouldn't mind carrying on with him? If you 2 are still in contact, perhaps get him some professional help? You have many options. Get him into rehab if you need to. Maybe this will be the next step in the growth of your relationship without you even realizing it. [] Edited August 10, 2017 by a LoveShack.org Moderator Redacted personal question ~6
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