MarvelFan1 Posted August 7, 2017 Posted August 7, 2017 So my mother booked a family holiday for us all, including my then partner at the time included. Unfortunately me and my ex broke up 3 months before we were due to go away. And now the holiday is here this week and I'm just feeling down and low. There is a spare wrist band that was meant for her, an empty space at the table opposite me for her and a double bed with just me in it. I keep wishing she was here with me, and I have been missing her a lot this past week. We were together for just over a year, and we have been split up for 3 months now, with the last 2 months being NC. This past week I have missed her so much and wanted to contact her and talk about reconciliation etc but I keep reminding myself of the facts; I left her because of how she was treated me like I was second best, I was always apologising for every little thing and how annoyed and angry she made me and I didn't love her anymore because of her behaviour. But there has always been the niggle in the back of my mind where she said that I never told her about how she was treating me and that I never spoke up to say when I was annoyed, that I should of communicated more and we could have sorted it out, and that is true, I stayed silent to keep the peace. Maybe I was to impulsive. Is it just the fact I'm missing her lots that makes me feel like this, guilt, a bit of both... Could we reconcile, could I find love with her again or am I just clinging on to something that will never be, just because I'm feeling low? I'm so close to breaking NC, even though she hasn't even bothered to contact me at all... I feel lost. I was doing so well being NC and now I'm in a funk.
d0nnivain Posted August 7, 2017 Posted August 7, 2017 Keep yourself busy & rearrange how people sit at the table so her absence is less glaring
Maldives Posted August 7, 2017 Posted August 7, 2017 Dude she hasn't contacted u because u broke it off. If u broke it off as a plot for her to change and beg and plead it's not a good idea it can backfire on u as it has. The balls in ur court if u were to consider reconciling I have no answer to u wether she will want to reconcile. I dumped and became the dumpee I took that risk to reconcile but I guess we were already in shaky foundation and made no difference.but I'm glad I at least tried it was up to me to try but she had actually already emotionally let go. One thing I've come away from this is it's always better to talk and work it out rather than threaten break up
Author MarvelFan1 Posted August 8, 2017 Author Posted August 8, 2017 Dude she hasn't contacted u because u broke it off. If u broke it off as a plot for her to change and beg and plead it's not a good idea it can backfire on u as it has. The balls in ur court if u were to consider reconciling I have no answer to u wether she will want to reconcile. I dumped and became the dumpee I took that risk to reconcile but I guess we were already in shaky foundation and made no difference.but I'm glad I at least tried it was up to me to try but she had actually already emotionally let go. One thing I've come away from this is it's always better to talk and work it out rather than threaten break up I broke up with her as I genuinely didn't want to be with her anymore, I guess I'm just in that phase of almost getting over the hill and this is the last hurdle. 1
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