Slowlydrifting Posted August 4, 2017 Posted August 4, 2017 I met a great guy but I let my insecurities get in the way. He has a very unconventional busy lifestyle. The relationships was not long distance and then it was and then it wasn't etc. I really truly fell in love with him. I got to a point where I stopped responding to his texts and ignored his calls. I don't really know why except it was a defense mechanism. I didn't want to get hurt. Even though, I already was. This was 2 years ago. He never stopped trying to get in contact with me. I thought about him every single day. I was in my own personal jail. A few things happened where something kind of clicked and I had to respond to him and I did. He was elated that I finally came around. We met up and it was as if a day hadn't gone by. A few more meet ups after that he wants to know what happened. Why did I disappear? Did I not know how much he loved me? I didn't. I have been in love with him for a long time but did not think it was going both ways. I never spoke up I just shut down. I won't make the same mistake twice and just want to see how it plays out. He is aware of my feelings and why I did what I did. He thinks it was a cop out. His life is still exactly the same. I do t want to make the same mistake twice but I also don't want to make a mistake. Does that make sense? Why is love and life so difficult?.......
Ami1uwant Posted August 4, 2017 Posted August 4, 2017 How long is he gone for snd why ??? If he is a business traveler and is on the road for 2-3 weeks straight then is home a month before it happens again....u need to accept that and learn how to handle that. Why are you afraid of getting hurt? What happened when he was away ?
Author Slowlydrifting Posted August 4, 2017 Author Posted August 4, 2017 How long is he gone for snd why ??? If he is a business traveler and is on the road for 2-3 weeks straight then is home a month before it happens again....u need to accept that and learn how to handle that. Why are you afraid of getting hurt? What happened when he was away ? Nothing happened short of he was legitimately busy and I got scared that I was feeling way much more than he was....
Robratory Posted August 5, 2017 Posted August 5, 2017 Why is love and life so difficult?....... Be less afraid, and if you can't, consider therapy. Love and life are what they are. You seem too cautious to answer the door when opportunity knocks. As long as you don't endanger the structure of your life by doing something rash like getting pregnant, or giving the guy lots of money, or moving three states away two months after you met him, pull out all the stops and enjoy the ride. Of course you're going to experience heartbreak. Experience it as fully as you experienced love. Nothing is really permanent. When one good things ends, you have to start another good thing. Take the jump, even if you're afraid. Otherwise, you'll never know.
Miss Spider Posted August 5, 2017 Posted August 5, 2017 Life's less difficult when you're about the block life.
Author Slowlydrifting Posted August 5, 2017 Author Posted August 5, 2017 Be less afraid, and if you can't, consider therapy. Love and life are what they are. You seem too cautious to answer the door when opportunity knocks. As long as you don't endanger the structure of your life by doing something rash like getting pregnant, or giving the guy lots of money, or moving three states away two months after you met him, pull out all the stops and enjoy the ride. Of course you're going to experience heartbreak. Experience it as fully as you experienced love. Nothing is really permanent. When one good things ends, you have to start another good thing. Take the jump, even if you're afraid. Otherwise, you'll never know. I'm trying to be less afraid. He is away now for a month. I put myself out there with him so he is fully aware of my intentions. I have too much to lose being risky with any of those things you said. I was really depressed after I stopped speaking to him to the point I got sick. I know I made a mistake. And it's hard for me to accept that someone tried to get through to me when I thought that they weren't very interested. I over think and over analyze to a fault. Now I worry that he thinks because I disappeared once already that it could potentially happen again. He poured his heart out to me about what happened but things were really good between us after that up until he left. I am glad I never fully blocked him, there was no real "need" to and even more happy that he never stopped trying. I'm a firm believer that people come in and out of my life for a reason and there is still a reason why he is still here. 1
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