wakamiya Posted August 9, 2005 Posted August 9, 2005 I had a huge fight with my ex whom, we aren't really even on speaking terms. He said he wants to know me, but not on a personal level. I said "Why can't you have faith in me?" which, he said he has before...I broke it, and I deserved that. Also said if this was permanent (because I asked), he would be cutting all contact. So I guess it's not. He just doesn't want me to be friendly to him like I used to, or ask him things that would let me know about his day? (Sounds like a game to me) But how come things have to be this horrible? He's so spiteful now. He hates relationships, and now says romance is a waste of time and told me I am all hyped up on it, and need to realize it's not that great (I happen to know its not everything, infact I'm not keen on relationships right now either...I wouldnt date him if I had the chance), - AND that theres nothing really good in life. - IN HIS OPINION. I should be very mad right now. I was 16 when we met, and he is now almost 19 and I am going to be 18.... I know there's a lot of people in my life, that I'm going to meet, and I feel like I can let go of him now. Still a little sad thinking about this, but I feel almost healed( ). He mocked everything I went along with. - At first I didn't like him more than a friend, and eventually went along with it... I know, bad, and I had a lot to learn. Eventually I started to like him. I don't act at all like I did when I was 16, and thank goodness. But it feels wrong - I asked him "You wanted the relationship too at one point" and he said he did, but now he just feels it was retarded and a huge mistake. It feels like he was cheering me on this whole time. And let's just say he told me a lot of things that aren't true now...he's a completely different guy now, and if I had known he was going to change into this. It's hard to believe he changed This much anyway. I had to ask a few questions, but it feels good. I feel like I can get over him completely. Should I not be in contact with him at all? or let him come around every once in awhile? I'm not sure what to do... If I had not of met such a great guy the beginning of last year, I would not have hung on to him for so long. And he's willing to talk when I say something that I guess, really gets to him...I dont know what that is... I wouldn't say he cares about me. Someone please help...I don't really know why he is acting this way. Edit: I'm sorry if this message sounds all huffy and angry, because I was when I wrote it. It's pretty clear he doesn't miss me, but if I do no contact I'll start to miss how he used to be. But he's not that guy anymore, and will never be.
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