does my ex still have feelings or should I just ignore this?

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so my ex and I have been broken up for 2 months

 

during the first part of our breakup, I was the one who was constantly begging and reaching out and wanting to get back. my ex was nasty and cold during the period and said some horrible things

 

then we had a final meeting and she broke down during it apologising saying she'd said things she didn't mean and that she'd forever hate herself for letting me go, she got really emotional etc and I felt like I had the upper hand for once after acting desperate

 

but we said goodbye. a few weeks past with no contact

 

then a family member of mine took ill and a mutual friend of ours told her. she messaged me just with a polite message like "hope all is well etc "

 

I thought it would end there but she kept asking after my family member every day, I was polite and responded.

 

my best friend had deleted her on Facebook during our breakup after witnessing some of the things she'd said to me and didn't like her anymore.

 

while my family member was ill she messaged my best friend a massive paragraph begging them to be friends again saying she missed me so much and cared about me. she told my friend she kept thinking about how we hadn't gave it our all and was having bother letting me go.

 

my best friend just blocked her and then she messaged me the same paragraph only not admitting all her feelings, just saying she misses me etc. I replied saying it was selfish as I was going through s hard time and it was confusing.

 

she replied saying sorry and that her head was messed up, I was to ignore what she said and that she hoped my family member was okay. she also was like I'll just leave you alone now. I told her it'd be best we didn't talk anymore as what she'd said had confused me as my friend had told me what she said and it wasn't fair. she said she regretted saying those things and that she also thought it'd be best we didn't talk anymore.

 

so now I feel back to square one as I was starting to get over her and now I'm upset at how she's acted and I have no idea if she even meant any of that. is it just nothing or should I contact her again? I really miss her but can't go back to hot and cold from her.

 

I'm really upset.

[Arieswoman]

Please ignore your ex, block and delete. That is the only way you are going to move forward and heal.

 

If she thought that much of you, then she wouldn't have broken up with you.

 

I'm sorry x

[Maldives]

That hot and cold behaviour is them nor sure wat they want and they r trying to work out wat they want at ur expense friend demand more for ureself