Erriuga Posted June 20, 2017 Posted June 20, 2017 (edited) 6 years of relatioship, this is the 3rd break up, last time we broke up was 3 years ago due to him going after someone else and then regretting it. He always denied it, until we got back together and he was drunk one night and told me he actually went after her but regret it. A couple of months ago I found out I had a miscarriage and I didn't even knew I was pregnant, I told him and he said he was gonna be there to support me, I was having the worse time of my life and he was the only supoort I had, one week later he told me he couldn't handle with me any longer and that he didn't want me in his life for good. The pain I was left with was huge, like nothing in my life, I was alone, even financially. Weeks later I found he might be triying to be with the girl that caused our breakup before, asked him, and he denied it. Now 2 months after our breakup I got confirmed by a mutual friend of them being together. I feel so heart broken, we don't talk at all unless for him to fight me over some nonsense, I just can't believe he f*cking left me with all that pain of something that was also his responsability, not only that but now being with the one girl who made me suffer with. Worse thing is I have to see them at college. I feel like crap, never saw the break up coming because love was on top (I tought) and now this, I just feel like my heart is not even a heart anymore, can't handle this pain. I haven't date anyone because of the impact of all of my losts Edited June 20, 2017 by Erriuga
Purepony Posted June 20, 2017 Posted June 20, 2017 First things first ... you ! Try and focus on yourself and your health especially your mental health. I can't even imagine going through something like that but it sounds to me like you are finally free from a cycle of pain and this go no where fast rodeo These are the first steps so there will be the hardest but I assure you that soon you will be out of this deep sea you are in 1
Maldives Posted June 20, 2017 Posted June 20, 2017 The community is here for u. ur pain I been thru break up also this yr. We work togethere wich sux and ive had a challenge wth it she started seeing a colleague at work and was forced to watch that in front of my eyes some people r truly selfish. Any way to my benefit he left and moved overseas but still hav to deal wth this selfish woman still not easy. Anyway big hug and we r here for u. I've found this forum really really helpful. The 1st couple of weeks are literally hell. I mean even for me 9 mths down the track and I'm reeling but that's because I have to see her at work. Otherwise it'd be a lot easier im angry just thinking about it. Anyway, just know ull get thru it slowly this first few weeks the pain can be unbearable u can feel really numb hyperventilate even. Wat i found helps is try and keep busy and see some friends if u can. Keep us all posted on here and keep checking in til u start feeling a little better. Some people like mine and ur ex are just very self centred selfish people. I'm sorry for ur loss too the miscarriage that muse or been really hard to go thru. Please check in from time to time and know u have a community here that cares and has ur back 1
cutiewootie Posted June 20, 2017 Posted June 20, 2017 Oh sweetie I have been in the exact same situation. I tried to od over my miscarriage and the idiot was entertaining some other girl. Was no support whatsoever took him back so many times after him running off on me for other girls. He done it again after it just being us for 5 years and I saw red contacted his family tried to warn his latest squeeze about him but they all think the sun shines out of his backside and hes perfect! Funny he calls me a psycho for doing that. But a psycho is someone that cannot be there to support his woman or step up after the loss of a child. He is never going to change. It took me 10 years to realise I never listened to nobody I defended him to the end until he did it to me again and that was it for me I knew I deserved better. You need to see a miscarriage councillor and talk about everything you are feeling feel free to pm me if you want am here if you need to talk I've been through it! It was like I was listening to my own thread x
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