Addison Posted August 4, 2005 Posted August 4, 2005 So today is exactly one month since he left me. It has been like 18 days since NC came into play. I've been feeling so much better... until last night and today. I didn't sleep at all last night. I thought of him and even when I could sleep I dreamed of him. When I woke up my first thought was, "He's still gone." And that just set the mood for the entire day. I was the only one in my office today so I had a lot of time to just think about things. This is not such a good thing these days. I tried to keep busy but thoughts of him would just overcome me and I felt like I was in slow motion. Since I have gotten home from work, to my nice lonely apartment, I've been struggling not to call him or txt him. I know that I don't NEED him... but I sure do miss him. I still love him so much. I'm just trying to respect his decision about our relationship because I don't want us to look back on this (whatever the outcome of it might be) and see that I acted irrationally or foolishly. I want to handle this with dignity but on days like today all I want to do is call him and beg him to come home. I guess that's why I'm posting this now. As long as I'm doing this, I'm not making a fool of myself otherwise.
RecordProducer Posted August 4, 2005 Posted August 4, 2005 You keep your feelings well under control, Addison. Congrats! Getting over is very hard and look at it as a challenge. Basically nothing but time can help you. I was so sad when my ex-husband left me and now I am so happy. It took me a while to get over him, but I am grateful to him for doing the right thing for us both. It will go away. You'll meet the right guy sooner or later!
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