How to forget your life

[miaharun]

Hello Everyone , I don't know if this is the correct thread to write this but I'm currently not in peace. My story goes like this,

 

I met this girl, Three years ago, She's everything I wanted, Cute, mischievous, honest and very hyperactive. I was however sort of the opposite. I didn't like crowds, parties , events etc etc. I only wanted to hang out with her forgetting all my friends etc. After sometime we got to know each other quite well and couldn't get enough of each other. 5 or 6 months down the line things got complicated, She and I was of different religions and there were problems at home, I was a bit hesitant to continue due to this and sometimes she was in tears during this period. Later on when I saw things started to fade, I realized that I didn't love anything in this world more than her. So there were big fights at home and finally won the approval to get married to her. Things were beautiful for 1 year or so. The best and the most memorable time of my life. I wanted her to be the best, found her good careers , wanted to see her right up there. Took care of her like my own eyes, whatever I earned wanted to do something for her or something with her. However by end of that year, things started to change. Her religion took importance , career took importance over me. Things started to get worse. I was being shouted at, regrets, for example for time she spent with me , she could have done somethings she wanted, I took all of that in and never shouted at her , never had any sort of hatred towards her, I loved her even more. For once which I considered my life was fading away, I couldn't do anything about it, I was a pain to her, begging to spend at least 5 minutes with me. Just to hold her hair for one more time. Just to keep her on my lap for one more time. I wollored in my sorrow for a long time, she was enjoying her life. Met a new guy etc

 

Finally I met a girl as well. After this date, my love was calling and texting me randomly , stating how she remembers how I looked after her, how she had the best moments of her life with me, My problem is this, There isn't a single day that I don't think of her, There isn't a single time where I don't dream of holding her, Always wishing for her to be happy wherever she is. I'm getting married next month, but my former lover lives in me no matter what. I just don't know what to do about it, I live by my morals and will not do anything to hurt my wife. How do you forget something which you considered your life ? The most important thing you ever had? Even now I would give anything to run my hands through her hair and putting it back behind her ear. The only thing stopping me is my morals. I wish I hadn't have to feel this way, but I cannot forget the love of my life. I don't have the need to be with her, but everyday wondering if she is alright, I want her to get married and have a nice life, have children. I wish she gets a man who will honor her the way I did , I'm in a lost world

[mightycpa]

Job #1 would be to make sure your betrothed knows that you're in love with another woman.

 

Of course, that might scotch the marriage.

 

Of course, that would be the point.

 

Unless it's some kind of business arrangement where emotions aren't important.