In love with a girl with a tricky past and presen.

[Ericm94]

I met this girl 5 months ago. She came out and told me she's super sick and has been dealing with the disease for 4 years now. Honestly she could go any day. So many heart issues memory issues and depression. When I met her tho I broke down how a pretty amazing girl could be so hurt. She was treated awful by every guy in her life. She left her life to travel across the usa to be with her ex who she was with for 3 years. He treated her wrong and she isn't over him yet. she doesn't wanna date him but she doesn't no how to get him out and let me in. She is sick and no one understand her I saw her everyday and kept her company and safe. We dated the first two months an it was the most happy I've ever been an I made her happy. She always got to scared and ran away cause she wasn't use to be treated well. We stopped dating and regressed to friends when she felt she couldn't fully let me in. This girl is on 20-25 pills of Benadryl a day an has high and lows all the time. The ex lives in New York and she was honest with me since day one. She has left for 3 week to the Mayo Clinic which is the best clinic in the usa. She is always let down an feels she we will never be cured. I am the only person she talks to and won't judge her. Her heart goes wild I'm there to make sure she's okay and I wanna make everyday for her special. She isn't over her ex an is hoping to get healthy and be able to let me in. She can't think of someone right now with her health all be questionable. So I get that,I don't think she can make a real decision while she is depressed and drugged up. I wanna love her an show her I'm always gonna be there. I know I'm hoping one day we can be together but I know I gotta let things play out. I'm. It sure do I leave an wait for her to get her life together? Or am I hurting her an me by waiting. When things get rough I am right here by her side cause I do lover her unconditionally. We are stuck cause we want something bigger but now ain't the time. I would want someone by myside in a bad place like that. If things work out yeah if they don't then I don't feel bad for loving her. I hope she realizes maybe she loves me cause I see how happy I make her. But honestly am Is it wrong to stay? If I love her should I keep going and just see how things go? I just am so conflicted and she wants me but doesn't no how to show it yet. Do I leave an show her what she'll be missing an if she comes back she does love me? Idk live in the moment or look forward. When she can't think for the future. Maybe she's dying but I know she makes me feel more alive than I ever been.

[d0nnivain]

You have a big generous heart but a lot of what you wrote doesn't make sense. Benadryl is an over the counter medication. If she is sick enough to be dying from cardiac complications & is being treated at the Mayo Clinic, she is not taking 20 Benadryl per day. That dosage would cause her to be very sick; 20 pills would be toxic. It would not cure anything. Benadryl treats allergic reactions not heart conditions. Make sure you are not getting scammed.

 

 

That said, she has told you she is not over her EX. So while you are head over heals, to her you are merely a rebound. You are filling up the void / space left by her EX's departure. Be careful about not pressing too hard for something she can't give.