Panda1993 Posted April 23, 2017 Posted April 23, 2017 So to try and make a very long story short. I dated my now ex for about 2 years LD. We mutually decided to break-up, with us both saying that another chance was extremely possible. We stayed friendly for the first two months or so, talked on the phone, texted almost daily, Exchanged nudes. Here's where things get kinda ****ed. One night She texts me and tells me she had cut herself, we talked and it being an LDR both agreed(she was reluctant) that I would contact a friend of hers if I thought she would do it again. fast forward a little bit there's no contact for about a week, I panic and text her something along the lines of "so we aren't talking anymore?" she for whatever reason took offense to that. Another day goes by, she reply's but it's not often. i get pretty angry with her and say "you can't tell me something like that and just not talk to me" a huge fight ensues, I say some pretty, not nice things concerning her attitude. she stops responding, i call, she blocks me. i text her saying "does this mean i need to tell Friend" no answer. about a month goes by no contact on either side(i assumed she had me blocked the whole time) she texts about sending her back a laptop she was letting me use. admittedly I did not take this well. one simple question "you're ****ing somebody else aren't you" "Yup" she tells me she likes him it's more than just sex blah blah blah. again i admittedly didn't take it very well. but here's where my confusion really starts to come into play. i ask her to tell me she doesn't love me anymore, tell me you hate me, anything. I remember her exact words to this day. "it's not that I don't love you, but i've moved on , you need to let me go." along with other gems like "i'm not going to make this easy for you" i ask her "so it's done we're done, there's no chance of us getting back together". Her "not right now no." if you're still with me brace yourself. i spend the next couple of months in a drug and alcohol fueled craze/haze. i called way too much, texted her way too much, sent her flowers. But again another confusing part While she very quickly blocked me on Social Media she would only block my number after x amount of calls and then i'd be unblocked either the next day or a few days after. Then New Bf calls me from a private number "you need to stop, she's fine, she's moved on, she wants you to move on. i know everything about her past". i completely lose it. all this time no contact from her and that's what i hear i let her have it via voicemail. i think i'm done. but i find out who he is about a month later and that sets me on another calling binge. she calls me this time saying she's worried and i guess yeah looking back she had a right to be. saying she thought i was there, she was scared because she didn't know what i would do(i never in the relationship or out of it threatened her in any way, i also live about 10 hours away) i call her back! she actually picks up! we argue and the last thing she says to me "my boyfriend is calling me" *click* so here i am now about 4 months later with only one calling binge since, and a drunken apology email taking full credit for everything and telling her she deserves better. But yet i still cant get her out of my head i know enough time hasn't passed and chances are the way i handled thing's those will be the last words i hear from her. i did truly love her, i did have plans to propose, at one time i thought she was my soul-mate. i know at one point she felt the same too. But i also know people change, feelings change. I guess the point of all this if you're still reading. i feel broken,hopeless,alone. i've tried to date other women, i've tried to keep myself busy. But my real Question i guess is am i really all there is too blame? i'm fully aware i went overboard. but i cant help feel like i've been lied to and manipulated.
Maldives Posted April 23, 2017 Posted April 23, 2017 No u r definatley not at fault bro. She just gave up in the end. It's only a hunch but my guess is she's met this guy and that's what's aloud her to move on so easily. A lot of females do this I've noticed not all but even from reading on these threads and also from personal experience before they break up wth you and move on they either have someone they're talking to or have someone. Weak in my opinion because it shows they have no strength to be on there own and break up they need an dome one around all the time. It must be a survival thing for woman. Again not all woman do this my sister doesn't but in this case I'm gonna say it's a pretty good guess. Don't be hard on yourself and blame yourself it's definatly not you if anything you showed commitment and loyalty she showed weakness by crossing over to a new relationship and that about sums it up. **** reading all these posts im kinda glad to take some time out this time no more head games etc for a lil while for me. Food luck bro oh and btw don't bother wth her anymore she's not worth it or worth 2 Bob. 1
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