Does anyone else feel like..

[little princess]

.. banging their head to the wall, ripping their heart out or vanish into the depths of the ocean to never be found again?

 

I can't take this pain.

[breadbin]

well i had my heart ripped out for me!

 

and then it was beaten a few times. but yeah I do feel like you alot of the time! The pain gets easier. It really depends on you. You have to remember you can somewhat control your circumstances. My ease started when I realised there was this thing called no contact. I chose to ignore the breadcrumbs which were causing alot of the pain. I wish I had found this website sooner but better late than never.

 

sorry to hear about your pain but focus on doing things that let you escape the pain. alot of people use exercise, friends,family, new lovers, etc. I'm presuming the pain is that of loss of a best-friend, lover etc?

[jorgeg3d]

This is why we become closed off, because of heartbreak. Its the worst feeling, and the hardest thing to recuperate from. But you have to rise n grind, and keep going.

[candygirl985]

yes,

things you know how to do, like breathing becomes a struggle

you also found out you're capable of crying up enough tears to help Africa.

If it wasn't for your self control you'd break everything in your room.

If it wasn't for everyone having high expectation of you you'd probably quit college.

I think i could just lay in bed and never eat for a week.

 

But you know it is life, you get up, get dress, go to class, listen to lecture and take notes even though it went in one ear and out the other.

You take the exam that you forced yourself to study for but didnt retain anything and fail . Yet you continue this shell of a life.

 

I have yet to figure it out but i hope eventually bit by bit, my tear ducts will sense that no matter how much I cry nothing will change. This pathetic routine i follow and the fake smile I give out will start becoming real. The empty shell will start to fill itself again with little things ; the girl walking her dog in the morning, the i love you text from your mom. the new job offer. etc I hope that is how it will all eventually play out because right now I'm still a hollow shell

[little princess]

well i had my heart ripped out for me!

 

and then it was beaten a few times. but yeah I do feel like you alot of the time! The pain gets easier. It really depends on you. You have to remember you can somewhat control your circumstances. My ease started when I realised there was this thing called no contact. I chose to ignore the breadcrumbs which were causing alot of the pain. I wish I had found this website sooner but better late than never.

 

sorry to hear about your pain but focus on doing things that let you escape the pain. alot of people use exercise, friends,family, new lovers, etc. I'm presuming the pain is that of loss of a best-friend, lover etc?

 

I am sorry to hear about yours too. I know, but sometimes it's t really difficult.. especially when some nostalgia moments pops up and it reminds me that we had an amazing time at last year at these very same days

 

I have gone NC and even stopped going into the apps altogether. Thought that was better to do for my own sake, otherwise I would have been keep stalking him..

[little princess]

This is why we become closed off, because of heartbreak. Its the worst feeling, and the hardest thing to recuperate from. But you have to rise n grind, and keep going.

 

Ah, so true. Yes, I am trying to keep myself going.. I feel like a total mess.. :/

[little princess]

yes,

things you know how to do, like breathing becomes a struggle

you also found out you're capable of crying up enough tears to help Africa.

If it wasn't for your self control you'd break everything in your room.

If it wasn't for everyone having high expectation of you you'd probably quit college.

I think i could just lay in bed and never eat for a week.

 

But you know it is life, you get up, get dress, go to class, listen to lecture and take notes even though it went in one ear and out the other.

You take the exam that you forced yourself to study for but didnt retain anything and fail . Yet you continue this shell of a life.

 

I have yet to figure it out but i hope eventually bit by bit, my tear ducts will sense that no matter how much I cry nothing will change. This pathetic routine i follow and the fake smile I give out will start becoming real. The empty shell will start to fill itself again with little things ; the girl walking her dog in the morning, the i love you text from your mom. the new job offer. etc I hope that is how it will all eventually play out because right now I'm still a hollow shell

 

I feel you in all this. I kind of envy you on the tears. I wish I could cry myself an ocean to drown in, but sadly even my tears have gone cold on me.. I think I don't even have any more tears left! And that is so so painful, because I don't know how to get the pain out..

 

I also feel like a hollow shell.. so empty. I am not sure if I ever will be able to fill it up again, I feel like I have nothing left.. but of course I am keep going, cause life does not stop even you stop up.