Death of a Lie

[Quiet Storms]

This is the poem I wrote the day I found out my ex-boyfriend of almost 2 years had someone else. About 3 weeks ago.

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The night the lie finally died

I cried

for something I never touched

that never launched

but meant so much

Someone I never knew

yet the tenacity of your hold on my heart

Always there

Ever true.

 

Perched on the front step

in the darkness

Feeling the rain

on my face

Remembering the pain

but also the joy when you sang

What A Wonderful World

to this woman far away

as the waves crashed below you

at the end of your day.

 

Were they lies?

You, with your coffee-colored skin

and obsidian eyes

When you paused

to say nothing at all, in the silence

that was everything

Was that a lie?

 

Then came the storms

Vicious winds, thunder and darkness

Angry roars

That destroyed the delicate foundation

of our Topanga.

And tore the carefully constructed walls

of our future.

Replaced joy and Hope

with pain and sorrow.

Hearts and souls gone hollow.

 

How does one return

from this place so dark,

from the spark

of life that we almost knew together?

Was it a lie?

Something that never lived

because we let it die.

[adreamwithinadream]

That was beautiful I could definitely relate to those emotions from when my boyfriend cheated on me

[preraph]

I'm sorry for your pain. The bad news is he wasn't who you hoped he was. So that was the way it was a lie.

 

The good news is that great love you feel is YOUR love that is inside you. It doesn't come from him. He didn't make it. So you take that love with you when you go and give it to whoever you choose one day who really deserves it. You haven't lost love. He just wasn't up to receiving your great love. He didn't have it in him.

[Quiet Storms]

Thanks for the support. It's the first time I've written anything like that, and it was therapeutic.

 

preraph, what you wrote makes a lot of sense. It helps to remember that.

 

It just hurt because he took my love and made it into something negative. Something terrible. Something I regretted giving.

 

It hurt because I truly believed he was a different person than his words and actions showed in the end. You don't intentionally hurt people you love. You don't call people you love terrible names.

 

There are better men out there. I know this.

[curiouslysearching]

Thanks for the support. It's the first time I've written anything like that, and it was therapeutic.

 

preraph, what you wrote makes a lot of sense. It helps to remember that.

 

It just hurt because he took my love and made it into something negative. Something terrible. Something I regretted giving.

 

It hurt because I truly believed he was a different person than his words and actions showed in the end. You don't intentionally hurt people you love. You don't call people you love terrible names.

 

There are better men out there. I know this.

 

I am going to ask a serious question: what does calling someone names accomplish?? Seriously, how does that resolve a conflict or resolve any problem? I would love to hear any and all responses.

[preraph]

Thanks for the support. It's the first time I've written anything like that, and it was therapeutic.

 

preraph, what you wrote makes a lot of sense. It helps to remember that.

 

It just hurt because he took my love and made it into something negative. Something terrible. Something I regretted giving.

 

It hurt because I truly believed he was a different person than his words and actions showed in the end. You don't intentionally hurt people you love. You don't call people you love terrible names.

 

There are better men out there. I know this.

 

Yes, it really sucks when we give from the heart only to find out someone wasn't substantial enough to appreciate it or return it and then just uses it to their advantage.

[Quiet Storms]

I am going to ask a serious question: what does calling someone names accomplish?? Seriously, how does that resolve a conflict or resolve any problem? I would love to hear any and all responses.

 

I honestly don't know. This is the first relationship I have ever been in like that. It sure didn't resolve any conflicts.