Tlb765 Posted February 4, 2017 Posted February 4, 2017 Alrighty so, Don't really know how to explain this but I'll try my best. - previous post I talked about how my ex has left me for her ex a couple months after her mom passing away in a car crash while we were together. . It's probably the worst feeling in the world. To feel not good enough any longer or maybe that I was never good enough I might have just been a rebound for a year . We had a dog together and built a life. Things did go by fast but now I'm left all alone with our dog that we had. Which is one thing I am thankful for. So she's back with her old boyfriend, I found this out over people talking and that they were in Columbia together . So we have recently broken up and I hadn't got my things from her house I had been putting it off for some time cause I wasn't emotionally ready. Well after finding this out I was in so much grieving pain and hurt I couldn't even bare it . A couple days later I went out drinking to watch basketball and by the end of the night i had enough courage to go in and get my stuff knowing she wasn't there. I am 26 years old. I asked my friend to drive me to her place so I could get my stuff and leave the key. Since she was off on some love vacation getaway. I got all my belongings and ripped up some photos that we had together and destroyed a apron I bought her that she never wore. No bad damage to any of her belongings or furniture. Oh and I turned the ac down to 64 degrees. Now in the morning I realized how immature and that her hurting me and leaving me was hurtful this wasn't going to do anything so I went back to try and fix t but I guess I left key in house. So couldn't throw away the photos or turn the ac down. I went home and forgot about it. Well she came home and messaged me that she was going to call the cops and that they were on there way. I called my mom cause I was nervous and scared and my mother called her and come to find out she never called the cops but if I try and contact her she will. I know i let my emotions get the best of me but I loved her so much and invested so much into our relationship and now she just threw it away for her ex. I'm just so hurt and I was angry and I feel like I'm the only one hurting and she's off having the best time of her life with her old boyfriend and traveling and I'm stuck here in pain with the dog. It doesn't make sense to me i could never just be in a relationship right now so soon after a break up with her. I know I let my anger get the best of me but I forsure know she probably hates me now and never wants to ever see me again which is probably for the. Best. I just regret it and wish when she thinks of me in the future it won't. Be a negative memory. I want her to always love me even if we can't be together . But I feel like I ruined that and just pushed her away even further and made it easier for her to be with him again. :/ Thanks for reading . 1
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