Purple123 Posted February 3, 2017 Posted February 3, 2017 Hey all. I'm new to this forum and I simply joining due to driving myself insane after splitting up from my partner. Basically we had a 2 year relationship, I moved in with him and we made his house our home i moved away from family and it was always a plan to one day move closer but it always caused awkward arguments. We did make it beautiful and as much as he always said he would never put me on his mortgage i still contributes a lot After around a year and 8 months for some reason we started to drift and I wouldn't blame him I would blame me. It was a tricky situation as he held a family secret from me which I knew about due to a friend of a friend and I never wanted to confront him as I wanted him to trust me. He would get drunk and punch walls and I always put it down to this secret and he upset me drinking and it made me hate him even drinking one can as I was worried. I took my dog down and he hated my dog which again I would be defensive over which then caused arguments. I spent alot of time driving so I was often tired and miserable and I think that also drained us. I pushed him away as I didn't appreciate him. I didn't show him how much I loved him. He also found it difficult that I wasn't close to his family and this factor would cause so many arguments which if anything drove me away from them as I blamed them for the arguments. I hated they all held this secret from me and I never felt good enough. They were a wealthy family where as mine weren't. I also had influence from a friend this whole time who knew him and made me think bad of his family. When I look back now I realise I let her influence me do much. It drove me away when I look back and many other factors such as he became very lazy and didn't have energy anymore. I truley believed I deserved better but the saddest part is when we split I was breaking my own heart however I always thought he would be there as he honestly adored me more than anyone. I'm now 7 months after the relationship, I've rebounded for a very short period and it never was a relationship but after this I realised most males aren't nice and I couldn't believe I let my ex go. Then I found out my ex recently had a new partner which broke me. The thought of her being in the home I built with him doing the things we did. Just breaks my heart. I heard they split but I physically think all day of them. We have mutual friends still. My family still miss him. He changed all his contact details as for some reason everyday I wanted more conversations about how much he didn't love me. And still all I want to do is talk to him even though I know the outcome. I know we are over. I'm finding it so hard to accept that someone who loved me so much (or so it seemed) can just stop. But like he said as I went cold and distant he fell out of love with me then. When we were together. Now all I think is there's no way he loved me. He's now moving on to his second girlfriend and because I keep trying to stay in touch he tells me. He also tells me he would rather pull his eyes out and get back with me. One of his big problems with our relationship is that I didn't show enough love so I guess I'm trying to make up for it now but all I've done is push him to the point he wouldn't ever get baxk together as he couldn't go through this again. I read online how to move on but for some reason he's my first and last thought. I don't think anyone will love me like he did, the thought of him with a girlfriend on the sofa we spent years on just eats me up. He literally does not care. Not one bit. And I honestly feel like every day gets worse.
basil67 Posted February 3, 2017 Posted February 3, 2017 Perhaps it would help if you could tell us why you miss a guy who behaved as you have described.
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