Stilnaught Posted January 24, 2017 Share Posted January 24, 2017 Hi guys, it's been 2 years since i've been dumped. Not by my last ex, i've had other girlfriends in the meanwhile, but still, she's stuck in my brain. I've done my story here before, back in those days i guess, but i just keep on repeating what happened in my weak moments (it tends to hit when i'm either lonely, very tired or especially in combinations). I keep on pondering about the basic outline: i loved her like i never loved anyone else. She made me tremble, literally, by just being near me. I never lost that feeling. But she had double standards, not trusting girls in my vicinity while hugging and chatting up every guy who was up for it. Allowing guys to hit on her without even hinting about her "unavailability" at that time, just enjoying the attention. Using me to make her ex jealous (by suddenly jumping me when he's around, while she was acting aloof before ànd after he's gone). Then she also stopped talking, started being busy all the time, did not put a single bit of effort in our relationship. Gave me an awesome birthday, and then walked off without even talking. Never answered messages or calls since, but she did kiss a guy straight in front of me (while staring at me afterwards, according to friends). I've been dating and hooking up, had girlfriends (i broke up with them, because of hidden pasts (cheating) and personal problems/desperateness), went fitnessing (which i actually already did in the relationship, but intensified), focussed on hobbies, ... Nothing helps. My mind is stuck on her. Not in a "i'd take her back" way, but i have a feeling i will be trying to solve this riddle until my last breath. And i don't get it: she's as bad as it gets, despite the good moments (mostly when we were alone), and i don't think she'll be making any guy happy anytime soon, unless she finally heals that broken part of her which makes her both a dramaqueen and an attention wh*r*, every now and then i hear through mutual friends that she hasn't exactly changed yet. But it's like a need for closure is embedded in my soul, reinforced through all the highs and lows of that relationship. Anyone here any hints on fighting such a persistent demon? Link to post Share on other sites
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