niceandsloow Posted January 20, 2017 Posted January 20, 2017 After the very first date with my boyfriend, I knew he was different, and we had an immediate connection. It wasn't love at first sight, but the chemistry was undeniable from the start. Even though I have dated casually over the last several years, this is the longest relationship I've had since 2010. We are going on 6 months, and it has been great thus far. Most of the guys I have dated in the last several years have lasted maybe 2 or 3 months. So this is the first time in a long time where I have had legitimate feelings for someone again. I am really falling for him, and it is exciting and terrifying at the same time. I have been very guarded prior to meeting him so to be this vulnerable is scary. He has quickly become one of my favorite people. He challenges me, in a good way, and makes me want to be a better version of myself. There is so much I love about him and so much we have in common. I truly think we have something good going, and I'm enjoying how things are progressing. I haven't said those three words yet but I have shown him through my actions that I care for him. There is no way he doesn't know how I feel about him. I've told him I feel lucky because we have something good and he agreed that it was so, so good. While I know my feelings are real, there is a little voice in my head that questions his feelings and where he stands. I don't think I would feel this way if it was completely one-sided but he isn't great at showing his feelings or expressing himself. He has said things that make me feel we are on the same page. Once he looked at me and said, i see my future and it looks so bright. We have gone out shopping for things for his new place, and he has been mentioned how are "we" going to fix it up. He got a new bike so "we" can go riding together. He mentions we a lot and things like this but I question the sincerity sometimes because admittedly I'm jaded. His actions of late don't always seem like we are on the same page. For instance, he was once always making plans but now, it's only me making the plans. He also has been reluctant to come out with me and my friends. We had a brief convo few weeks ago, and he just brushed it off like everything was fine. I've been mislead before so I think that's in the back of my mind This has gotten a bit long but I guess I am at a point where I want to really tell him how I feel but I don't want to do it if he doesn't feel the same way. I am.also weary of investing more time if this isn't what he really wants. I rather end things amicably and remain friendly instead of going another few months and realize this isn't what he wants. This is why it is scary because I know what I feel and I know it's real but it's knowing that there is a chance that he doesn't feel the same way. I want things to happen naturally but I think my own feelings are starting to freak me out and I don't want to get heartbroken. We have talked about the future here and there but it's always very generic on his end. How do I get him to open up and tell me how he really feels? How do I know we are truly on the same page?
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