freddy2017 Posted January 17, 2017 Posted January 17, 2017 (edited) my toxic 15 month on off relationship has gone to off again and this time its a massive off at the start of the year 2017 we decided to try the full commitment, i moved in with her, we announced the relationship publicly (although together for over a year) and set sail towards a year of defacto living. we work well together go out to places enjoy great laughter and build towards goals in and away from the house the previous day we were lovers in a local pool and going to the gym together etc etc but then eventually as usual good old monster woman arrives gets highly stressed about tiniest things they accumulate one on top of the other and then bang!! a horrific monster explodes and bombards me with abuse and outrageous comments to a point that makes me feel like im the worst person on the planet, and she is the almighty queen of egypt and we are all her peasants girls get emotional, upset and moody plus are battling pms now and again so its understandable how they can get a bit irrational, but my god this person becomes nasty, sadistic and abusive to a point where she is a different person to the one youve chosen your life to be with. she does not reach for me in need in these times, she instead happily stabs me 400 times i am her partner, her closest friend, her rock but suddenly i am her enemy her burden or pretty much a stepping stone she seeks to tear down and mutilate so she can feel up again that is not love or friendship or working together or cherishing having someone. I wouldnt dare slay her with all my dung and belittle her to make myself feel better and make myself be free of stress her latest outburst saw me go to work earlier than normal. she has a new banking job in which has turned her into a highly dis-likable prick so im prefering not being around when she is in her banking costume. anyways as im driving away in came 10 messages bombarding me with abuse and anger "how dare you leave early and not assist me in my own preparations for work, how dare you not pick up a towel in the lounge room (which was not mine), this is all a one way ride im doing all the work around here, and youre doing nothing, pack your bags and get out of here by tea time" all her comments are untrue, i am a massive contributor, but in the heat of once again facing a psychotic monster and knowing this is a usual routine, i went back got my stuff and left, and have since blocked her completely from my life. this happens every time, its ended about 15 times in 15 months and all because miss psycho unleashes these outrageous outbursts about nothing and strikes intense blame on me for her own hostilities. the reasons for previous breakups are just or even more ridiculous than this one 2 days later, she emails me "come on every relationship cant just be sunshine and lollipops, a little storm is needed now again" wtf, no remorse, no accountability and she feels her outburst of kicking me to the street over a towel left in the lounge room is justified? anyways its day 4 no contact, im learning to be single again, but by trying to make sense of her crap, i fear im on the way to forgiving her for the 15th time. im hoping to go 90 days of no contact but its very hard right now or today she was married for 6 years previously and i think he was wussy enough to endure her onslaughts and kiss her feet, and by moving in with her i was simply a replacement to allow her to be disrespectful again to her partner. he did eventually have an affair and got caught sleeping around. these are my thoughts, am i backwards in my thinking, am i poor at dealing with conflict, a friend said maybe my incompetence and running away from her fixes nothing and allows her to take these evil repetitive paths every time because she always gets me back eventually. she just has to endure 2 months alone every time and we suit up for it all once again i just feel her attitude and disrespect when stressed is a betrayal of our unity, it is dishonorable and she is a poor person to believe it is acceptable to slay your partner to make yourself feel better. girls get emotional but this is evil and she needs an exorcism im trying to get things off my chest i guess but any thoughts or reflections would be most appreciated Edited January 17, 2017 by freddy2017
PinkPampies Posted January 17, 2017 Posted January 17, 2017 Does she just get this way during that time of the month? And rest of the month she's normal?
Author freddy2017 Posted January 17, 2017 Author Posted January 17, 2017 with contraception that area never arrives, there is no monthly, so hormonal wise god knows whats happening there once something makes her a tiny bit angry she lets anything else make her even angrier and cant remain composed or brush off difficulty someone must pay because she is in a mood 2 children also dont help
Author freddy2017 Posted January 17, 2017 Author Posted January 17, 2017 did the old stupid and broke not contact. had things to get off my chest and conversed for a few hours online recieved.... No remorseNo apologycomments such as "well thats who I am, I yell & i vent"You take the good with the badYou broke my kids heart by leaving, lol wtf!! but i got to have my say now that her psychosis has calmed i think she felt that me making contact again justifies her behavior as acceptable and she can get away with it now that what seems like ive come back girl is mental, why are people built in a way they cannot feel guilt or take responsibility for their own actions. are they born this way or have just been parented poorly now we go no contact, ....day 1 lol.
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