notmyselfnow Posted January 5, 2017 Posted January 5, 2017 He hasnt talked to me since i last saw him. I have just messaged him to say im done. thats it. I am going to NY to have a good year for me now. Why do i feel so angry though? Why on earth did you message him? How I would interpret it, if I were him, is that you are still hung up on him and hoping for some grand gesture about how he loves you. I think you just showed him you are weak, and I think once you get to NY, he will use that. You're angry because you hoped he would respond with protestations of love. I think it is an utter mistake of you to go to NY. You will end up miserable. It's not a great opportunity if you spend the whole time distraught over an affair and scorned by your co-workers for being in it. I can't imagine this being good for either your psychological health or your career. 1
Author hondababe Posted January 5, 2017 Author Posted January 5, 2017 Why on earth did you message him? How I would interpret it, if I were him, is that you are still hung up on him and hoping for some grand gesture about how he loves you. I think you just showed him you are weak, and I think once you get to NY, he will use that. You're angry because you hoped he would respond with protestations of love. I think it is an utter mistake of you to go to NY. You will end up miserable. It's not a great opportunity if you spend the whole time distraught over an affair and scorned by your co-workers for being in it. I can't imagine this being good for either your psychological health or your career. Nope, i am done now. I have reached that stage. And maybe it took that last message to do it. I know me, and i reach a certain point where I reach a decision and i stick to it. Ive gone to that point now. I will go to New York, because it is a fantastic opportunity for my career. And I am very career minded. I have 8 weeks before I go. I have 4 weeks to pack up my life here, do all the work i have to do, and in less than 4 weeks I am off on a round the world trip which will be amazing. I do a lot of photography, so am going to concentrate on that, and i draw/paint, so have got my sketchbooks out to take with me. I have amazing friends to catch up with before I go, I have a full and exciting life ahead of me. I have the chance to get back in the gym now that I dont need to spend time thinking about him anymore, and get back to my former lighter self. All the art galleries in NYC, all the opportunities for me to connect with people in the art world and maybe find opportunities there to exhibit etc. Then there are the weekends.. i wont be paying rent or utility bills... i can go to JFK airport on a friday, get on a plane and visit another american city for the weekend.. do my photography and sketching there. There is a world full of opportunity out there for me. I aint gonna let this guy hold me back anymore. This is my life, and I deserve to give myself the gift of living the best life I can. 2
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