Drivetildriven Posted July 16, 2005 Posted July 16, 2005 My ex woman broke up with me in May. When she was breaking up, she asked if we could be friends and I said, "Hell no, not for the foreseeable future, I want so much more from you than that." She said, "Well I'm still going to keep in touch with your sisters and keep up on how you're doing." I said why, we're broke up, what's the point? She said that she cares about me so much and that's why. I said, well that does me no good. Anyway, I haven't communicated with her in a month, nor do I plan to. She's following through though. Her and my sister email each other about twice a week and most recently she asked about me. She asked when am I going overseas and hoped that I was doing well. I know that she cares about me a great deal and that's why she wants to know how I'm doing. But damn it... I think I would rather have her hate me than think of me as a friend when we used to be so much more. And I swear if she writes my sister one more thing about how she hopes I'm "so happy" and finds someone who's right for me, I will hate her. Those are things for my friends to tell me, not my ex. She already has a new man. He's some shortly (5'8" or 5'9") muscle man. He looks like he benches 400lbs. I had the misfortune of seeing them all over each other at a bar. I was doing well until that, then back to depression, square one. I would give anything to be locked in a room with him. It would be violent. (She met him before we broke up.) I'm sure he's giving her all the sexual passion that a whore needs. Her genuine concern for wanting me to be happy and "find someone who's right for me" is more patronizing than anything. It's like she's taking pity on me. It all just makes me feel worse. But damn it all, I love her more than anything. I guess I'm not looking for answers. Just needed to vent.
lamar_84 Posted July 16, 2005 Posted July 16, 2005 I know how you feel. I seen my ex kiss her new bf a couple of days after she broke up with me.
A Fly onThe Wall Posted July 16, 2005 Posted July 16, 2005 I know it's a blow to see the new guy.. One way of looking at it is: would you want someone that can go from one to another to another without any breathing space ? No you wouldn't Keep your chin up
outdated Posted July 16, 2005 Posted July 16, 2005 Originally posted by A Fly onThe Wall I know it's a blow to see the new guy.. One way of looking at it is: would you want someone that can go from one to another to another without any breathing space ? No you wouldn't Keep your chin up Excellent advice. Find someone that's worth a sh*t.
InsatiableStar Posted July 16, 2005 Posted July 16, 2005 You do sound hurt. I would actually be grateful that she cares, and is not being a mean spirited b*tch about the whole thing. That would hurt more.
Author Drivetildriven Posted July 16, 2005 Author Posted July 16, 2005 Thanks for the replies. It's about 2:40 AM and I just got back from a night out. I wanted so much to drive past her house, but I didn't. We're over, it would do me no good. I'm kinda drunk. God in heaven I miss her. It's pathetic. I do deserve someone who doesn't float from whoever gets her rocks off at that time. It's nice that she cares, but given the platonic nature of her affections, it's more of a curse to me than a blessing. Well, I'm going to bed. To fill the void, I've taken up drinking, piano lessons, guitar lessons, golf and working out like a fiend. I've go piano tomorrow.
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