strange love Posted July 15, 2005 Posted July 15, 2005 Im kinda down right now. I guess I thought that if I contacted my ex she would be jumping for joy and Id instantly have her back. Im not quite sure why I expect this, maybe ist cause im born in a generation thats expects instant appeasement. In any case Im trying to focus on other things like helping a female friend paint her apartment. And learning more about and getting involved in the company I made an investment in. The owner of that company whos also one of my best friends isnt keen on me moping over the ex. So I try not to talk about it much. I needed something to help me cope with this. I decided to go through my posts. They all seem to follow the same trail. I tell my ex off or she tells me off and one of us claims he /she will never speak to the other party again. And I know it really hurts me when she says that, I guess I dont think much about how it hurts her when I do it though. The point of this new thread is, looking at my old posts.. I see she always turns up again. So I will just wait in the mean time. Im not gonna post 200 message on her about do u think she will call.. Or will I ever chat with her again. For once since the first ever really bad break up we had Im gonna be confident in that fact that she will return. And when that happens I wont play games, as I did the first time. i TOOK HER CALLS whenever I could..even at 4 am. For once I feel in control of my emotions and of my situation with my ex.. soon to be girlfriend once that times comes around again.
unsafe Posted July 15, 2005 Posted July 15, 2005 Why did you break up with the in the first place? you should think about that. You guys keep playing games and hurting each other that isn't love. how old are you? I know its so hard when you feel like your heart is somewhere. But time heals all wones. If you just give time and space you will move on. Again why did you break up?
smile Posted July 15, 2005 Posted July 15, 2005 I don't think it's strangelove that is playing the games. It's the way she was pushing and pulling and he was always being there that was not working. Proof by the fact that he took the leap of faith and sent the flowers and email. I wish it was as easy as figuring out why you broke up and fix it. Why should they trust you? What's different? And it makes them second guess their opinion. The ex looks like a fool for not having enough faith in the relationship that the issues may be able to be worked out. I also think she is his emotional crutch. And maybe if he is gone (which is basically what one should expect when one breaks up with a bf/gf) maybe she will be able to stop playing these dumb games of needing and rejecting. I dunno. I am going through the same thing and strangelove I say be strong. Because you do deserve someone who loves you whenever and always... not just when it seems convenient for them. I won't say she will come around bc I don't know.... but I sure hope she does. These exes don't realize how much work we are willing to do for them. They have no idea how lucky they are, usually not until it's too late. Take care and stay strong. p.s. I know what you mean about this place being a crutch. Just keeps you seeped in the agony and questioning.
Author strange love Posted July 15, 2005 Author Posted July 15, 2005 Im not going to say too much here. Cause im like in a certain headspace. I didnt send flowers. My relationship with my ex is like the tide. Right now the tide is out, one day the tide will come back in. My ex isnt the only one playing games. Im guilty too. Thats all I really feel like saying right now
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