smile Posted July 14, 2005 Posted July 14, 2005 So I did the NC thing for a bit. Not to be malicious but to get my head straight. And the first week was ok.. the second week he called me everyday and txed me and emailed me dumb links. So then I call and the first day he just wants to hang out with me tons.. goes on and on about how we can do this and that. I am a bit nonresponsive cause basically it kinda felt like he didn't take me seriously. Like my needing space was a joke. We talked online a bit but I just wanted to go. He told me jokes and secrets nobody else really knows and made sure I knew I was the only one who knew outside of a select few. I had to get off the comp bc he started asking me to come over and it just felt like it was floating back to where it was. He called me a few days later and I was shopping. He called to ask about the bombings in England.. he had just come home from a camping trip. I couldn't hear him, he couldn't hear me. So I said I was not going to yell inside the store and he started mumbling.. I didn't understand him and he hung up. Ok cool no biggie. Now I called him about the cell phone bill, no answer. He said all these things about us hanging out and he hasn't called. It's like he has disappeared. I just don't know what, if anything, I should think. I mean I have times when I miss him but now it seems more nostalgic. I am worried about him but I now know I can't fix everything for him. Is he letting go too? Or could he be playing games... like oh you think youre the only one that can disappear? And if I do what are you going to do? Or should I just let it go? I guess I am in the acceptance stage and may be on my way to coping. Is there anyone out there who thinks I am doing the wrong thing? Should I chase him? Should I still be there?
GL 44 Posted July 15, 2005 Posted July 15, 2005 DO NOT CHASE. Let him come to you. If he's interested in persuing this relationship further you will hear from him.
Author smile Posted July 15, 2005 Author Posted July 15, 2005 Yes I know I shouldn't chase him. I don't want to either. I guess I just wanted someone to confirm that this was the right thing to do. I have heard it on here countless times before but I had to hear it after I felt it. Does that make any sense? I am reading over some of the messages I have written and things I had journaled since we broke up and now I can see how it ended and I feel ok with leaving. Wishing I had a long time ago. It's funny too because it's hard and easy at the same time. Dumb I know. Anyway thats all for now. Thanks for the advice. I will do my best. I just don't want to be mean. I dunno.
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