tchocky Posted July 14, 2005 Posted July 14, 2005 I'm not really one to post on message boards, especially not about my personal life...but in light of recent events in my life I guess it would be best for me to vent and try and work out some of my feelings through writing them out. Anyways, I recently came accross this board and decided to post my story... Last October my girlfriend of just over three years oficially ended our relationship. We had talked about breaking up before, and one time she actually did break up with me but we quickly ended up back together...Anyways, this time she was serious and ended it. In February I found out that she has been seeing some jerk that she met on hotornot.com of all places. Anyways, I managed to suck it up and try to deal with it. During this time I still saw her and eventually we ended up starting to date again. But she is very tempremental and often times changes her outlook on our relationship (if you can even call it that anymore)...You might be wondering why I put up with it when I know that she is seeing someone else...Well, the truth is I don't really have a reason other than the fact that I love her. The thing about us is that we love each other still...She tells me all the time that she loves me, misses me...but just cannot commit to me right now. She says that she wants me in her life yet feels guilty at the same time for seeing someone else. She goes off on tangents admitting what a bad person she is and how I should never see her again because she is selfish and so on and so on. At this point I don't know how serious she is with the other guy. From what she says about not being able to commit it seems that she is just looking for physical romance and that's all. She doesn't seem too interested in emotional romance (hell, she comes to me still for that). I end up being the one to reassure her when life looks bad, and tell her that things are ok. Like I said before, she still sees me a good deal and we still engage in our normal routine of being together. Up to this point I am really confused about the whole thing. I'm a pretty simple individual who appreciates the smaller things in life. I found someone who I care for, and love deeply so therefore I want to be with her, and she just can't seem to make up her mind about me. Anyways, I just needed to vent. She tells me that she can only see herself ending up with me on a long term basis. Well, that's my story. There's plenty more to it but this post is already too long. Bottom line, I'm tired of waiting around and I hate myself for not being able to just stop loving her and walk away... =/
lamar_84 Posted July 14, 2005 Posted July 14, 2005 Sounds like she wants you as a standby in case she doesnt get what she want from that other guy..
Sal Paradise Posted July 14, 2005 Posted July 14, 2005 Originally posted by lamar_84 Sounds like she wants you as a standby in case she doesnt get what she want from that other guy.. Bingo
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