ForsakenSoul Posted July 11, 2005 Posted July 11, 2005 Jen... I miss you. I wanted you for years, and when your husband served you the divorce papers and left, it killed me to know about your pain. When you had the guy after that, and he treated you like ****, it killed me to know about your pain. You then accepted me into your heart, and gave me the best 4 months of my life. I was too foolish to realize I was being used as a rebound. Your husband realized what a stupid idiot mistake he made, as soon as he found out about me being with you. He cried and pleaded, and you let him back "just so he could see his children", because he "deserved to see his children" and I agreed. He cried and pleased more, and you started letting him back in your heart, and pushing me out. You quit talking to me, three weeks before I freaked out and sent the email saying goodbye. I didn't want to send that email, but I could not live in limbo. It was killing me. You still won't talk to me. You write about me in scorn. You turned me into a bad person in your eyes, and I can't understand it. You told me I made you feel better than you had in "quite a long time". You told me you'd "always want to see me", no matter what happens. You told me you'd "always love me". And now you won't even talk to me anymore. I realize it's over, and I realize you are trying to make it work with your husband now, even though he treated you like garbage for years. I don't understand why you won't talk to me. We were friends before we were lovers. I'll always miss you, babygirl. I'll always love you. I'm trying to move on, and not look at the past, but it's so very hard, as you were the best I'd ever had. I never connected with anyone like I did with you. I sit and wonder how I'm supposed to find someone to have that connection with again. I miss you, Jen. Unlike you, I meant it when I said I would always love you. I will always hate that man for cheating on you, leaving you, and then coming back into your life when you and I were so happy. I can't write these words to you, as I'll appear "psycho" or "stalkerish". I can't allow myself to care for you anymore. In a world full of people who care so little about their fellow people, I have to learn how to completely quit caring about someone that meant so much to me. I miss you, Jen. You made me so very happy, before you crushed my soul. I so hope I find that connection again. I wish it would be with you. Crap in one hand, and wish in another, and see which fills up first... I miss you, Jen. I loved you completely, deeply, and openly. I let you completely in, and you were so very cruel at the end. I guess I never really knew you. But I still miss you Jen... You stupid bitch. -FS
J dub Posted July 11, 2005 Posted July 11, 2005 Originally posted by ForsakenSoul You stupid bitch. -FS
Author ForsakenSoul Posted July 11, 2005 Author Posted July 11, 2005 Yeah... It seems I may be harboring some resentment... -FS
westernxer Posted July 11, 2005 Posted July 11, 2005 Dear FS, I do love you, but I'm not over my ex. He wounded me like no other, but I forgive him because he rocks my world, and I'm hoping things will go back to the way they used to be. You treated me like a queen, but you're not my ex. My heart is his alone, and he may do with it as he pleases. After all, I'm just putty in his hands. I'm sorry if you were the rebound guy, but my needs are far greater than yours. I never meant to hurt you, but your pain isn't as great as mine. You're a sweet guy, and I really cherished our time together, because you helped me with so much. Please do me a favor and never speak to me again, even when my man leaves me a second time. I'm weak and foolish, and I'll certainly call you as soon as it happens. By accepting me with open arms, you prove nothing, except that you're more foolish than I could ever be. Please don't be mad at me. Just get over me, and don't ever befriend me again. Bye, Jen
Sal Paradise Posted July 11, 2005 Posted July 11, 2005 She shouldn't contact you. If she is going to work things out with her husband there is no way she can be friends with someone she was intimate with. If I was in his shoes I would basically tell her if she's friends with you I'm gone. Whether he's an a**h*** or no is irrelevant, he probably thinks you're one as well. She is with him now and in all honesty you shouldn't expect her to remain friends with you. This is the chance you took when you go from "friends, to more than friends" with someone just coming out of a marriage and a bad relationship. I'm not saying its your fault but you need to be realistic. Put yourself in his shoes. Would you want your wife being friends with a guy she slept with, a guy who is still in love with her and wants to sleep with her? Yeah he cheated but she's an adult. She has made a choice. Its her life and her choice to make.
A Fly onThe Wall Posted July 11, 2005 Posted July 11, 2005 Originally posted by westernxer Dear FS, I do love you, but I'm not over my ex. He wounded me like no other, but I forgive him because he rocks my world, and I'm hoping things will go back to the way they used to be. You treated me like a queen, but you're not my ex. My heart is his alone, and he may do with it as he pleases. After all, I'm just putty in his hands. I'm sorry if you were the rebound guy, but my needs are far greater than yours. I never meant to hurt you, but your pain isn't as great as mine. You're a sweet guy, and I really cherished our time together, because you helped me with so much. Please do me a favor and never speak to me again, even when my man leaves me a second time. I'm weak and foolish, and I'll certainly call you as soon as it happens. By accepting me with open arms, you prove nothing, except that you're more foolish than I could ever be. Please don't be mad at me. Just get over me, and don't ever befriend me again. Bye, Jen :lmao: Now that is a response written in Truth
Author ForsakenSoul Posted July 11, 2005 Author Posted July 11, 2005 Ouch. It only hurts because it's true... Nice distillation, WXer. -FS
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