EvilChicobo Posted July 10, 2005 Posted July 10, 2005 Go to this link if you care to read up on the background info for this post. http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t65576/ I thought I'd try posting here since I wasn't getting very many responses, so here goes! Well I thought I'd go ahead and post an update on my situation. It's been about a month now since we broke up, I've been doing my thing she's been doing hers. And we'd chat every now and then. About a week or so ago I was at a party and I had gotten really drunk, I saw my friend calling people on his cel phone and well, I was drunk and thought I should do the same thing so I called my ex lol. Well I talked for her for an hour and a half. I remember what I talked about but she believes I was too drunk to remember anything. I know while we talked she had mentioned she still cared a lot for me and missed me. Well a few days went by, I talked with her and apologized for calling while I was drunk. I invited her out for lunch, which she then changed to dinner. So I meet up with her when she gets off work, and we go out to eat. I made sure she was comfortable and was having a great time. I remember during our conversations I had asked "So what sort of stuff did I say to you when I was drunk?" and she turned white as a ghost, cause I know we had talked about some very intimate issues and she thought I didn't remember. I thought it was funny, the look on her face was priceless. So she invites me back to her house, invites me inside, we talk a little. I had written her a poem that I had wrote about her and I snuck it in her purse while she went to change. After that we went for a walk, talked some more. Again I made sure she was having a good time. We get back to her house and I'm about to head on my way. This time she hugs me, and doesn't let go, she just lets me hold her. Then she starts up another conversation, as if she doesn't want me to leave. We hugged good bye two more times, her not wanting to let go either time. At one point we almost kissed, but I made sure to resist. So I went home, a few days later I felt like hanging out and talking to her again, so she invited me over. We went for another walk again. This time she asks me what's on my mind, and I tell her. I explain how I've been having so much fun going to parties, hanging out with friends, all that good stuff, but somehow even admist all the fun I still felt empty, like something was missing. I didn't get too emotional on her, but I let her know that I still cared for her, and that I'd always be there. We went and sat at a playground by a school nearby. She had told me that she still hasn't gotten over me. That lately she's been confused because some times she really misses me, but other times she enjoys being on her own. She then told me how she really misses her mom, and got into this whole conversation about how we sometimes take things for granted until they're gone. She had told me that she wanted me to know she isn't going to England to meet someone new, she's going to be an Au Pair and take care of the family there. And made it very clear that she intends to come back after she's done. So we head back cause she's getting cold, and we kind of walk with our arms around eachother. We get back to her house and talk some more lol I know! Lots of talking. We hug and it's like the last time, she doesn't want to let go. And then she pulls back a bit and just looks in my eyes, and we start to lean closer. My nose rubs against hers and our lips are barely touching. I can tell she's getting very nervous, and she tells me that we probably shouldn't, she didn't want to complicate things cause we aren't dating. So I kissed her on the nose and then on the cheek. She let me hold her and then as she's walking to her house she comes back and once again gets very close to me. But I can tell she's debating in her mind to kiss me or not. So I say to her "I'm not going to kiss you unless you're sure you want it." And she smiled. And we hugged, and then said good night. When I got hom she IMed me instantly when I got online. She told me she had been thinking about the things we said and if we should have kissed or not. She said she wished we had, but she was worried it would make things complicatied. She asked me if I thought it felt right or not. I told her if something feels right than it is. I told her that loving her felt right to me, so I just do. Eventually she found the poem I had written her lol I had to give her some hints. I figured something special like that might show her that I do love her 100% without having to say it. Anyhow, my plan is to stay close to her, and see how things go for a year, and hopefully when she gets back from England we can see if we can pick up where we left off. So I'm just curious, do you guys think that this is going in the right direction? Does it sound as if there's a chance I can have the woman I want to spend my life with back with me one day? I just need to give her the time to do what she wants and figure out things for herself is what I believe, but what do you think?
ggallin13 Posted July 10, 2005 Posted July 10, 2005 It sounds to me like you might get her back eventually. But you never know. Giving her space is a good idea. Can't lose there. Good luck!
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