petroff Posted October 6, 2016 Posted October 6, 2016 Hello, my name is Adam. I'm 23. I've been through a few break-ups in my life which occurred mostly because of my wrong attitude. A few days go a girl I had spent over 6 months with broke up with me. She had been acting "strange" for the past 2 weeks and I was feeling that something bad was going to happen and it did happen. She told me, she can't treat me as good as she used to etc. I didn't want to break-up but I told her that if this is what she wants, then she can do it. Well, she did. I know it's my fault..I didn't treat her well enough. I mean,sometimes I would act like the best guy in the world, taking care of her, hugging, saying good things, being there for her, but other times I could also act like a complete jerk. First of all, I had my moods. I wouldn't allow her to come home late at night, because I was too woried that something bad could happen to her. Also I didn't pay attention to her activities.. And it's not like I didn't want to! But I felt.. well jeallous because she achieved something in her life and I didn't.(we're both studying at the moment) I could really be a pain in the ass for her sometime, and I would be jeallous and worry too much, and I think she just felt under my control and left because I wasn't giving her enough space. Now, after a break-up I understand my mistakes. Never ever control anybody. If a girl wants to be with you, you can't restrict and be overprotective. One needs freedom and own activities in order to live a normal life. I couldn't understand it. Now I do. But it's too late I believe? And yeah, I know, no contact, remove her things, social media..And yes, I'm doing it. I remember, when she was so into me, we had so much fun together, but I screwed this up because of my moods, my overprotection, my wrong attitude. Now it's over, but I'm willing to give this one more try. I'm not contacting her at all. But I want to give this first and last try at the same time, becuase it wouldn't let me live my life If I just let go somebody I care for and love. And yes, my friends, I know that I shouldn't contact, let her contact me first, etc. But I was the one who screwed this up! I need to be the one to repair it! If it doesn't work, then well - I don't care, I'll let her go completely.
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