sickoflove11 Posted October 4, 2016 Posted October 4, 2016 I only went on a couple dates with this guy but we texted constantly for a few months and I assumed it was going somewhere. Turns out he was just a player but I still decided to hook up with him because he was hot. The hook up didn't go well. Anyways, every time I see him I freak out. I've written about this on here before but more time has passed so I can't believe I still get like this. It doesn't happen with anyone else and It's never happened to me before. I saw him at my work yesterday. I wasn't working, just came in to check the schedule. He was sitting in the corner with this girl doing homework or something and he rarely ever comes into my work so I did not expect to see him. I do not expect to see him ever again, but he pops up every few months. I've had actual long term serious boyfriends, I know what it's like to not be over some one and I'm completely over this guy. I have no desire to be with him, I never think about him or wonder what he's doing. But when I see him.. it sounds so stupid but it's like he did something to me and my fight or flight kicks in and I get the heck out of there. Yesterday I said hi (I think) and then went straight to my works back room where I was shaking furiously. I can't even talk normal at this point and my mind is in scrambles. Now I can't stop analyzing the situation and thinking about how in 4 months he's going to pop back up again. I always think I am in the clear, we don't go to the same places or hang out with the same people and some how he manages to be somewhere I am every few months and I get like this. I know I am only attracted to him, but after these moments I get the feeling that I want him to miss what we could have had. I create like a false image of him where I just see what I want to see, but truly I know I wouldn't want to be with someone like him. I just want him to want me. I've never felt like that before and it's super confusing. I don't know if anyone else has ever felt this way or know how to handle it but I'm sick of it. I don't even understand what I'm actually feeling. I just want him to go away forever.
ja123 Posted October 6, 2016 Posted October 6, 2016 You're probably really angry at him for playing you and THAT'S what you have to get over. Try writing all your anger towards him in a journal.
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