Any thoughts on this situation?

[optimistic24]

I have a situation I would like some perspective on. I will try and give some background info without it being too lengthy. Back in November my ex of 4 years (I'll call him D) and I broke up. D is 27 and has 1 kid to previous relationship. I'm 24 and I have no kids. I met this guy (I'll call him E) and we hit it off pretty quickly and the feelings were mutual. E is 28, 3 kids (4 counting non biological) with a woman he has been dealing with off and on for 10 years. What I liked about him was he seemed honest and genuine about being with me. But I have to admit I was still keeping in contact with my ex and this was the problem the whole 3 months we were involved. Even stayed away from him for almost a week to entertain my ex ignoring his texs and calls at night. He eventually grew tired and we broke things off beginning of march. After a couple days with barely any words from him I called crying apologizing but he was so cold. I believe he and his kids mom got back involved. Although he claimed to no longer want a relationship he wanted to still be friends. I agreed and we kept contact the months following. We hooked up mid April but I could tell his heart wasn't in it. His words and actions said it all maybe he was hung up on her still. We wound up back involved again this past July. Once again I could tell his heart wasn't in it. This lasted a mere week before I found unreciprocated texts to his bm asking for sex, I love u, I miss u, the whole week we were involved. I felt played since I had been risking my relationship with D since E and I broke up in March. I know I did him wrong in the beginning amd he maybe has a right to do me the way he felt i was doing him.bDuring this time D and I had broke up just days prior to E and I week involvement. August 1st I find out I'm pregnant and my fertile days were the exact week I was with E. But being as though D and I were intimate also just days before I couldn't be 100% sure. I was honest with both men D (long term guy) was crushed. When I told E it was like he was neutral not happy but not upset. I continued seeing E the week following then the weekend came and he was acting different. I text him Saturday morning and didn't hear from him until around 9pm. He claimed to be at his sons baseball picnic. His phone was cut off so he could only text when he had WiFi connection at his mom's house. I said OK and that was it. Then Sunday came and no contact the whole day. Then Monday comes and he suddenly hits me with abortion talk. Claiming he wasnt ready for a kid in this difficut situation. Before he was taking responsibility in me getting pregnant, saying he knew what he was doing. And never made a mebtion of abortion before this ( he had known for about a week). I figure he must of got back with his bm. Of course i was pissed off and told him i dodnt need him. He was calling me vindictive saying he wouldnt be able to see his other kids. He also told me his bm would keep the kids away when I first told him I was pregnant. But more so in a heads up sort of way, not in a u have to get rid of it way. I unfortunately was having complications and ended up miscarrying. And it seemed as though he would contact me every few days just to be nosey and see if I actually had miscarried. I told him to f*ck off one last that i didnt need his fake nosey check ups. He said he was back home with his family and didn't want any surprises. Also claimed he was getting his number changed. It had been almost a month when he reached out to see how I was (from the same number). Asking how I had been, and what I had been up to. I was being very short with him because i was still hurt. Only resoonding but not asking him any questions about himself. He asked if I was feeling better, and that's when I opened up about the miscarriage experience. He finally apologized saying he wanted to check up on me even though I told him not to. He didn't want me to hate him and sorry for anything he did. He ended with have a good day at work and school didn't mean to bother you. I told him I really appreciated his apology. And apologized as well for some of the things I said to him. From his text pattern I'm going to guess he is still involved with his bm. But what do you think triggered this apology, do you believe he wants to reconcile at some point? I know this story sounds wild but I do have feelings for this man call me crazy. I have sort of fallen out of love with D I feel more of a friendship for him. Its been a week since he apologized and I decided to reach out to ask about his foot. He broke it during the week I was with him. He responded and we text back and forth briefly about his foot and that was it. I'm assuming he is still dealing with his child's mother. I think about him constantly but I don't think I should reach out again. I will wait for him to do so because I don't want him to feel I'm desperate. My reaching out was my way of letting him know I'm open to communication again. So now that he knows I will just wait. Any suggestions? I would appreciate it.

[aloneinaz]

I'm not reading this.. You need to condense it and add some paragraphs if you want anyone to read and provide feedback.