Depressing Saturday night

[mortensorchid]

I went out for a bit tonight to a theater benefit party. One of those combination cocktails and performance venues to benefit the organization. I saw a lot of people there, older and younger, chatted with a few people here and there. I looked around and saw all the happy couples around, I smiled politely. I went Lyft driving later on, picked up a lot of happy couples going to events and things. I felt somewhat ... Jealous I guess.

 

Then I thought about that psychopath who was calling and texting the other week and thinking "that's what's out there so you shouldn't feel depressed that you're not with someone like him, he's abusive and cruel". And all the others who have done and said terrible things to me and other women. And the man who broke me in a hundred million little pieces and left me high and dry like the coward he truly is. And how lonely I was feeling and how I want someone but have to pretend otherwise.

 

Done.

[Teknoe]

I went out for a bit tonight to a theater benefit party. One of those combination cocktails and performance venues to benefit the organization. I saw a lot of people there, older and younger, chatted with a few people here and there. I looked around and saw all the happy couples around, I smiled politely. I went Lyft driving later on, picked up a lot of happy couples going to events and things. I felt somewhat ... Jealous I guess.

 

Then I thought about that psychopath who was calling and texting the other week and thinking "that's what's out there so you shouldn't feel depressed that you're not with someone like him, he's abusive and cruel". And all the others who have done and said terrible things to me and other women. And the man who broke me in a hundred million little pieces and left me high and dry like the coward he truly is. And how lonely I was feeling and how I want someone but have to pretend otherwise.

 

Done.

 

I feel your pain. Being single can suck at times.

 

At the same time, I rather be single than in a miserable relationship.

 

I know it's hard, but maintaining a healthy perspective in tough times can help us pull through.

[Chris2016]

I went out for a bit tonight to a theater benefit party. One of those combination cocktails and performance venues to benefit the organization. I saw a lot of people there, older and younger, chatted with a few people here and there. I looked around and saw all the happy couples around, I smiled politely. I went Lyft driving later on, picked up a lot of happy couples going to events and things. I felt somewhat ... Jealous I guess.

 

Then I thought about that psychopath who was calling and texting the other week and thinking "that's what's out there so you shouldn't feel depressed that you're not with someone like him, he's abusive and cruel". And all the others who have done and said terrible things to me and other women. And the man who broke me in a hundred million little pieces and left me high and dry like the coward he truly is. And how lonely I was feeling and how I want someone but have to pretend otherwise.

 

Done.

 

I hear ya. When does the streak end? I'm constantly doing things alone. I want to have to company too, sometimes!

[smudge21]

Yeah was out last night too and full of couples everywhere. However, I've kinda' accepted my situation and feel much happier where I am. I don't feel lonely but I am alone. I'm just "yeah, that's how things are" and looking for happiness within rather than waiting for someone else to come along to give me it. Plus, just because there's loads of couples everywhere doesn't mean they're happy. I saw enough arguments last night to convince me of that. Also, have you ever gone to restaurant and seen couples - they sit in silence, only talking when they order. It's as if they're just going out on instinct rather than a desire to spend time together. Never presume people who are involved are happier than you. Some people just accept less rather than face being alone. The rest of us are maybe just a bit more picky.