Author bubbl Posted September 2, 2016 Author Posted September 2, 2016 hey again it's evening where i am and the weekend has officially started. I should be happy about this, but find weekends the hardest during NC. Cannot stop thinking about my ex and wish I could just say hello- but I know if he didn't respond or left it some time to respond, I'd be disappointed. We contacted every single day and now nothing. I have been working on myself though- exercise, focusing on goals, trying to make new friends etc, but despite all this, i still miss him. I just see everything through rose-tinted glasses right now. i had little in common with my ex but even that doesn't seem to bother me now. Honestly, in my head now, i find it more exciting that he had completely different interests to me and was a different person to me, as meeting someone with so many common interests would bore me. All I can think about are the good times. A part of me even respects him for listening to me when i asked for nc (having read some posts here of exes breaking their partners' request for nc). he has not contacted me and in my head it's because he is respecting my wishes (although, of course, the real reason is that he probably doesn't care anymore & is moving on). i'm sure his friends have told him that if I haven't contacted by now, it means i don't give a damn. I must though try to remember why we ended up where we are now. He kept wanting space and hardly invited me out with his friends (despite them bringing their other halves etc) and so i was tired of being excluded. He also shared very little about his life towards the end and that just pissed me off, seeing as I'd tell him a lot. I had made silly, trivial mistakes in the past, and made a big effort not repeat those mistakes, but he never could see (or wanted to see) how i'd improved (not change- i wouldn't change for anyone). i was tired of fighting as was he but still, i think there were a lot of feelings there. This is why I can't shake this off. I think he probably enjoyed the space I gave him; enjoyed time with his friends; and thought he probably didn't need me so much. Things were going great in his life and my life was/is literally crumbling (it's not just this relationship but other stuff, which he knows about). BUT like you have all wisely advised and from what i've read in other threads, the minute i send a text saying "hi, how are you", all that mystery, any feelings of missing me he may have, will disappear in a flash. it's crazy that things work like this- that people only realize someone else's worth when they're gone. sorry for rambling and thanks for reading.
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