N864123 Posted August 28, 2016 Posted August 28, 2016 I've never posted on anything like this before so i'm new to this. I feel like i need some advice and someone to turn to right now. In hope that someone has been in the same situation and can offer some words of wisdom. Where do i begin? I'm in a really bad place right now. I started speaking to a guy 2 years Ago. We came across each other on Facebook and from then we started to speak and instantly hit it off. We seen each other on a few nights out and we really liked each other. The next bit is really hard to explain and i'm not sure if anyone can understand or relate. We have spoken pretty much everyday through texts on the phone etc. We never went out the two of us on our own. Looking back i can't pin point an exact reason we were obsessed with each other and we could never not speak. Certain things felt like they were in our way. We both had things going on in our lives (mainly me) and also an other main problem was that he's in the Army and his base is away so he spends most of his time there. So between us both working fulltime and him not always being here it just never happened for us. But somehow we ended up being head over heels with each other. I know that may seem impossible to some people even to myself at somepoint but it happened. Last month he had been told he has to go away for a Year in the next few months to abroad for work and he has to go. Hes been sent there. He gets about a week's worth to come back and visit but thats it for a whole year. We spoke about things and at first we thought it could work for us. We could spend the months we have together while he's here before he goes and make it work. But last night he decided that after thinking things through he didn't want too do that. He told me he just couldn't see it working. For us to spend so many months together after already talking everyday for 2 years and then having to say goodbye it wouldn't be fair to make things even harder. I've took this very badly and i feel heartbroken. To go from having someone you speak to everyday, who i have bared my soul to about anything and everything and who i thought was the one. I thought it must of been special for us both to remain loyal and so into each other for so long like we did. To just not having him around. He decided we should stop speaking totally because we both needed to move on rather than make it harder. I miss him terribly already. The thought of maybe us never speaking again, and the thought of him going away for a year and leaving kills me. I also have these thoughts about him meeting someone over there and having something that i couldn't have with him. Theres nothing i can do other than to let him go. I haven't slept or eaten. I can't imagine life without him right now. I stalk his social media (which i know i shouldn't do) but he hasn't blocked me on anything so i can't not. And i'm dreading the day i see him on there with someone else. He said when he get's back (next christmas) if i'm still single and he is we could see each other. But a year and a half from now is such a long time and i'm dreading being without him. I feel terrible thet i feel this way when i read genuine stories about divorce and stuff and i think mine shouldn't compare. But i can't help how i feel and i just need someone to vent and some sort of adivce. I have very little friends as they all are moving along with there lives with there boyfriends/fiances. I'm the only one that hasn't found that. I feel like its something thats missing from my life and everyone deserves love. I feel very lonley right now as i don't feel like i have anyone anymore. Everything reminds me of him. I don't know what to do with myself?
NIGHT1985 Posted August 28, 2016 Posted August 28, 2016 Can you split your wall of text into paragraphs? Will make it easier on us to read and reply
Author N864123 Posted August 28, 2016 Author Posted August 28, 2016 Unfortunately it won't led me edit the text. Sorry.
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