zuir1 Posted July 4, 2005 Posted July 4, 2005 for some time ever since she cheated on me its hard to trust her, i eventually found her talking to some internet guy and saying things to him..I talked to him and he said dont worry wat ppl say online cause its only online and not real life, i confronted her about it and she said srry she doesnt know y she said things like, i have a bf but we only been going out for a month, i dont know if i love him cause its to short of a time...but she would send him pics and alot of other stuff.....ok one day i look at her myspace and a guy named vincent writes...hey baby, last week at wet n wild was fun, next week we can get more wet n wild....i tlk to this guy and ask him wats going on who is he. He says him and frances have been going out for 3 weeks and there doing great...when i ask didnt she say she had a bf....he says....yea but she said she rarely talks to u and is about to break up with u earlier that day she wrote me an email saying she loved me more than anything and would do anything for me and 1 week before she made out with me at a park, yet shes going out with this other guy? i call her at work and ask her who he is....she pretends not to know and denies it....eventually she admits it and says its because she knows i love her so much that she didnt wanna hurt me and she thought by us not talking that much i would get the picture....get the picture? Us not talking that much is once every other day? and she would tell me she loves me more than anything and doesnt know y i doubt her and dont trust her and shell do anything for my trust i try to convince the guy shes a bad person...he doesnt believe me and supposedly they tell eachother all the time they love eachother...but she swares to god on her mother and everything that the most she ever did with this guy is kiss him...and only pecks..nothing more she swares on anything.....she then tells me that she cares for him but nothing compared to me and she loves me so much but she is tired of the family bull****..blah blah blah....sometimes she would call me and just cry on the phone telling me how srry she is and how much she regrets it all blah blah blah yet she has everything of me in her house and wallet still and email so 3 days ago i visit her sister and shes there 2...this is the first time i see her in like 4 days or tlk to her. i sit down and she sits next to me. rnt u gonna say hi? I tell her hi and i dont wanna get to close cause i love her and wanna kiss her and hold her tightly...so i just talk to her alot and we flirt once in a while..but i say things like would ur bf like this ? wat would he think? blah blah blah....so eventually i get close to her and say how do u feel? she says she wants to jump on me and kiss me and she so happy to see me and she crys and cant look at me in the eyes...so eventually she and i kiss and she pulls me in for alot but i pull away and say i cant cause she gots a bf and i wont let her cheat...she looks dissapointed in my decision but agrees i am right...yet she gets excited....if u know what i mean....and she flirts with me for the rest of the day we go to the movies and she wants me to sit next to her, i tell her i cant cause her bf wont like that she shrugs her shoulders and says hes not going and not to worry but shed like to sit next to me. I tell her but we will kiss and stuff and she says she wont let it happen as much as she wants to.. But instead i let her sit with her sister in front and i sit with her bro in the back, she looked at me like 3 times...nothing much...after movie we go to eat at steak n shake and she flirts with me ALOT. But the night ends...but i find out by her sis that she said she doesnt want me over cause she doesnt want her bf and me to get in a fight for any reason... that brings us basically to today...me and her rarely tlk and shes been with her bf all day god knows what..but she told me she swore after making the mistake the first time with the other guy that the only thing she'll ever do with another guy will only be kissing unless its me or the man she marries...she swares and blah blah blah...and she flirts with me when i tell her about my new room and i need to break in my bed yesterday...but we havent talked since and shes been out all day with him and she seems happy yet she said only 2 months with him? and she said shes willing to break up with him for me, and to wait for her to make a decision by the time she gets back from summer camp shell ethier already broken up or not but i asked wat do u want me to do and she said wait but move on she wants me to hate her she says cause she hates how much i love her after everything and no one knows that even she messed up she loves me to death but she has lost hope cause of her mom bs excuse thats my story I know i have to move on but can anyone help explain the situation and dont point out the obvious of her like a hoe or anything. I want to know exactly whats going on in her little mind
Zaira Posted July 4, 2005 Posted July 4, 2005 She wants to have her cake and eat it too. She wants the sweet guy at home waiting for her, whilst she lives it up with the bad boys. You're right - let go, and try to move on. You deserve better than to be someone's lap puppy.
Author zuir1 Posted July 4, 2005 Author Posted July 4, 2005 I know i have to let her go but is there any other advice i can get, like y does she still have pictures of me in her wallet, and all in her room and all this other crap? I mean i dont see them but thats what her family tells me. Whats wrong with her, i know shes confused. But it was a 3 yr relationship with me and her and i gave her everything i had. did anything for her making her happy made me happy and now its gone forever.
Kat Posted July 4, 2005 Posted July 4, 2005 Originally posted by zuir1 I know i have to let her go but is there any other advice i can get, like y does she still have pictures of me in her wallet, and all in her room and all this other crap? I mean i dont see them but thats what her family tells me. Whats wrong with her, i know shes confused. But it was a 3 yr relationship with me and her and i gave her everything i had. did anything for her making her happy made me happy and now its gone forever. Because as soon as she lets go of you she knows she doesn't have anyone to fall back on. The more she keeps the lines open, either by making you fee like she still loves you, or by holding onto keepsakes and photos, the easier it is for her to let go of you over time without getting hurt Some people will never be happy no matter how hard people try because they first have to be happy within themselves.
Author zuir1 Posted July 4, 2005 Author Posted July 4, 2005 How can I get over her? I have done everything, meet new ppl, listen to new music, change alot of things, moved, try to be her friend (didnt work so stopped), work out more, ran, went out with friends, but there is always times that I think of her. I mean she was my whole life. Most of my friends are her family. So even when i get new friends and meet new ppl I still have my close friends which are her family. I am trying not to talk to her at all and trying not to see her at all. But I just want to forget about her in some way but shes always there. Not only that but I want her to feel bad cause she says she does, but I dont feel that she does. Yea ppl say in time she'll regret it blah blah, shell realize her mistake, and all this other stuff, but I have a feeling she cares for me only sometimes but I really want her to feel bad for doing this to me again. I thought if i get a new girfriend I know that would destroy her it realy would even if she has a bf now, it would kill her so much, but I dont want to find another person. WEll i do its just...Well....I just dunno, i have tried to move on to other ppl its just i never feel the connection, and i would talk to beautiful single girls that would like me to, its just i dont feel it. I think its cause im not over her and I need to be but like i said i have done everything i can. Im trying to give it time im trying everything, my friend told me im so attached cause she was my first for everything. If this is true would finding another person make me get my mind off her? I know its low and shallow but wil it help?
Zaira Posted July 5, 2005 Posted July 5, 2005 No, only time will. Occupy your mind with other things.
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