Scrab22 Posted August 12, 2016 Posted August 12, 2016 Hello folks, I wanted to share an experience I had while riding on my way home. That one girl - if you're reading this then know that it all comes from a loving heart and that I'd love to get to know you if we ever meet again. This is the objective side of the story: So I went on a bus towards home at around 22:30. Got on the bus and sat to the left, near the window. Sitting near me was my backpack. I put on my earphones and observe around to notice a young woman sitting near me, only on the right side of the bus. She was also near the window. She seemed cute, sitting in a resting V position, resting her feet on the barrier (she sat in front of the back doorway). I glanced at her once or twice, and one time she glanced back. I instinctively looked aside for a tiny moment and then looked her in the eyes. Her left mouth slightly "twitched" and we continued gazing for 2-3 seconds. I then looked away. This was the moment when I started feeling something. I then starting glancing multiple times. She'd been busy with her cellphone, still in her resting position, silently typing messages. Sometimes glancing straight ahead, and sometimes staring at the window. No glance at me. When I glanced yet another time, I noticed she was about to throw something in the trash. The trash is in front of her, on the other side of the back doorway. She got up, with the crumbled piece of paper, and made an arc throw with her hand. She slightly missed and returned to her sit. At that moment I grinned (if that's the right word to describe that type of laughter), looked down to myself and then returned a look at her, to notice she's smiling at me too, still in the position of standing, with her head leaning on her right arm. Her smile was beyond sweet - it was very emotionally touching. At that moment I felt an intense feeling of attraction. Still looking at her smiling, she positioned her body resting, but in front of me instead. Her eyes were looking down, slightly closed and tired. I gave the stare a break and looked straight again. I felt overwhelmed with attraction. I glanced here and there. About the first time, she was still on that position and tried to contact someone on the phone, staring to her left side. Glanced again and she returned to her previous resting position. After all the glances, she was either on the phone, looking straight or looking at the window. Never looked at me. She even rested on the window for a moment, until people got off through the back door. She one time adjusted her side bag on her left shoulder, as if about to get up. It was then my time to get off the bus. I got off, didn't glance at her when walking through the back doorway. But her body position changed from resting on the barrier, to leaning on the barrier with her arms, still on her phone. I then glanced from outside the bus to see if she's looking at me. Nope, her phone. The personal side: Why didn't I say hi after the smile? Didn't feel right. I was overwhelmed with intense feelings of attractions, she didn't initiate any glancing, her default face seemed tiredness/sadness/just look that way and she seemed anxious when she attempted calling someone on the phone. So that's why I wanted to give it another moment before I make a move. I hoped I'll see her again, since generally someone wouldn't feel so comfortable to rest his legs on a "stranger" bus, and the fact that it was so late and she was alone, and the distance was quite a distance, and the fact that she attempted sleeping here and there, strengthen the fact that this driveway may be a regular routine of hers. A week has passed, and yesterday I got on the same bus, though one station earlier than a week ago. She wasn't there, and the bus model was different (though it's kinda irrelevant, but still). She was the kind of woman I felt deeply touching my heart. After I got off the bus yesterday, I'd have emotional feelings of "kill me" (no, not suicidal, just that bummer feeling). I am a very sensitive person. That mouth twitch could've been some sort of form of a smile or attraction. Her mood seemed unready, yet deep inside wanting it. Her smile was like a burst. But my sensitivity comes at the price of obsession over an individual. She seemed like an irregular person. She t-shirt was also interesting, having some sort of slightly "bloated" shoulder circles, like some prom dress or something, I don't know. But it really matched her, and I loved it I'll say this again - if you find this story familiar, know that it comes from a loving heart seeking a loving relationship and that I'd love to get to know you better. I'd love to hear your thoughts. Thanks for reading.
NTV Posted August 12, 2016 Posted August 12, 2016 Hey I'd like to start by saying I think you are great writer. You capture that scene in a way that speaks volume and totally translates to me an objective Anonymous reader. I'm pretty sure I got just about every Nuance of your emotions or related to it enough to impose my own on to what you wrote. Though really I think your content verges on stalker. That's not to say this chick might not like you because some chicks do dig stalkers. But I am concerned about how quickly you attached the emotion to someone you didn't know... or is this someone you know?
Mr. Lucky Posted August 12, 2016 Posted August 12, 2016 When I glanced yet another time, I noticed she was about to throw something in the trash. The trash is in front of her, on the other side of the back doorway. She got up, with the crumbled piece of paper, and made an arc throw with her hand. She slightly missed and returned to her sit. At that moment I grinned (if that's the right word to describe that type of laughter), looked down to myself and then returned a look at her, to notice she's smiling at me too, still in the position of standing, with her head leaning on her right arm. Her smile was beyond sweet - it was very emotionally touching. Getting off the bus I would have picked the piece of paper up, made eye contact with her, smiled and thrown it in the trash. Would have given her the smallest of openings... Mr. Lucky
Author Scrab22 Posted August 13, 2016 Author Posted August 13, 2016 (edited) Hey I'd like to start by saying I think you are great writer. You capture that scene in a way that speaks volume and totally translates to me an objective Anonymous reader. I'm pretty sure I got just about every Nuance of your emotions or related to it enough to impose my own on to what you wrote. Though really I think your content verges on stalker. That's not to say this chick might not like you because some chicks do dig stalkers. But I am concerned about how quickly you attached the emotion to someone you didn't know... or is this someone you know? Thanks allot for the compliment, I'm glad to hear I can voice the story well I don't get your concern for stalking or attaching emotions (are you talking about the smiling moment, or my feelings towards her?). The only stalking part in me is that I'm primarily an observer, as you've probably seen. But the reasons for glancing allot is because I wanted to communicate with her. We're complete strangers. Mr. Lucky - wow, that sounds like a great idea, though I would've probably missed my stop if I'd done that. Edited August 13, 2016 by Scrab22
smudge21 Posted August 13, 2016 Posted August 13, 2016 I reckon we all go through moments like this, when we see someone who just steals out heart instantly and then... it's gone! Nothing worse than regret but at the time it can be so hard to make a move and simply say hi. I'm not going to judge you for not making a move as I'd have probably done the same and be kicking myself now. For me, I find I can pretty much talk to any stranger at any time and strike up a convo about anything... unless... I find them attractive. It's like a switch goes off and suddenly I worry about every little thing I'll say or do. I guess the answer is to try and accept that everyone is a stranger until you meet them and despite how attracted you may be to someone, they are still a human being with the same faults and problems as we all have. This girl may have felt the exact same way and even now may be kicking herself for not making a move towards you. Before OLD people only used to get dates by approaching strangers in situations like this, so you just got to try your luck. Aslong as you're polite and respectful, then no one should have a problem with someone saying hello. You have to think, what holds you back? If it's nerves then it's probably that worry about the worse happening. But in reality the worse is always that she ignores you or walks away - so the stranger remains a stranger. No harm done and nothing lost. Hopefully it's a bus route she takes quite often so maybe you'll see her again (don't be travelling buses for the next month though, that is just odd). If you do, act surprised rather than desperate, and just say hello.
spiderowl Posted August 14, 2016 Posted August 14, 2016 Ah, that James Blunt moment! You can only hope you bump into her again. Bear in mind she may have just been someone being friendly and warm and not at all seeing you the same way as you saw her. Having said that, there is no harm in trying to strike up a conversation if you see her again. Just smile and say hello, see how she responds. I hope you get the chance.
RecentChange Posted August 14, 2016 Posted August 14, 2016 Yeah I am just gonna say, I ride a train a few hours a day, and I "flirt" with guys like this all the time, but 99% of the time it doesn't mean anything. I just might think he is a little cute, and its a way to pass the time (the best is when you can almost read "omg she is looking at me" on their face).
Springsummer Posted August 15, 2016 Posted August 15, 2016 Yeah I am just gonna say, I ride a train a few hours a day, and I "flirt" with guys like this all the time, but 99% of the time it doesn't mean anything. I just might think he is a little cute, and its a way to pass the time (the best is when you can almost read "omg she is looking at me" on their face). This post might just cure OP
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