axelmich Posted July 25, 2016 Posted July 25, 2016 Hey! I'd like to share my experience with you to see what you think of it and what kind of advice would you give. So, I started my first year in high school and I wasn't looking for anything. But this one guy I met, Markus, (yes I'm a guy too) was fairly quickly on my mind 24/7. I didn't think he was gay, but I was so attrected to him. Then months went by and I started to develop feelings for him, and I told him. He wasn't attracted to me and said that he wasn't interested. It hurt a lot because I thought I was going to lose him as a friend. I got over it pretty soon, and for a month or two we didn't talk much. In that couple months I had a thing with a girl (I'm bi) and I became to talk with Markus again, which was good and we were friends again. The thing with the girl ended pretty soon. Our friendship with Markus was tighter each month and we "labeled" ourselves as BFFs. I was happy, I never knew I could have such a good friend. We would even spoon and have sleepovers. After few months as BFFs, he hesitatively told me he had feelings for me. Of course I was shocked, and I still had feelings for him even though I did get over him previously. But the weird thing is that why was I attracted to him now and not before when I told him about my feelings. We had our first kiss on that very day. I was over the Moon. We started dating and our relationship developed slowly but surely. After a year and a half, he would complain from time to time that I didn't love him as much as he loved me, or that I didn't see him attractive. He would even say that his self-esteem has worsened because of me. I loved him the most and saw the most perfect human being when I looked at him, and I couldn't even think about breaking up with him, but he didn't believe me. He was very affectionate towards me, and I know that I wasn't as much, but I really loved him no matter what. I just didn't show as concretely my love for him as he did. That was a problem for him, and whenever he brought it up, I'd sort of pass it and not really take him seriously. After all, I knew what I really felt. He said he couldn't take it anymore and decided to break up with me. It was so hard for me, and hard for him as well. I thought that I would be cool about it and reach him after a week. Maybe it was just a setback and we would be stringer than ever. I was wrong... When I called him and texted him, he was like a completely different person. He had completely got over me and said he didn't want to do anything with me anymore. He had deleted all our photos and thrown away anything I gave to him. He seemed very angry. I was so heartbroken I didn't want to do anything, I had no desire. I did the "no text rule" for a month and when I reached him he was still thinking the same. Now, few months after our breakup he is still mad at me and wants to completely forget about me. Two happiest years of my life have been taken away from me. I still love him, and when I finally think I've got over him, I start to think of him. I just wonder why he would break up with me after all we've been through. It seems like he didn't want to fight for our relationship. As if if something is wrong you cannot fix it. And if he really did love me more than I did, why would it take him to get over me in a week, and why I'm still not over him? I don't know what to think right now. Has anyone had an experience similar to this? - Axel
CarrieT Posted July 25, 2016 Posted July 25, 2016 Two happiest years of my life have been taken away from me. No, they have not. You have two happy years and have learned some of the first things about having a relationship. And that they don't always end well. You will look back on that time of your life with great joy - not the sadness. Has anyone had an experience similar to this? We all have. Welcome to High School. It is rife with drama and teenage angst. It won't be the last time your heart gets broken but is part of growing up and experiencing heartache and establishing experiences.
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